Date Wednesday
Time Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Wooh ! im too tired too talk . let the pictures communicate ehh ? enjoys okey everyones ! This was all taken during school lessons from last weeks & this weeks . takecre & goodbye .

Labels: You see ; Im happy w/o you

Date Monday
Time Monday, August 24, 2009

Oooohh my todaay was super fun laa kans . enjoy most of my lessons with two of my freakos(sayang) That was sulastri & queenie . Camwhored almost most of th period . I can say i enjoyed it soo much . Seems like todaay my fasting wasnt seems as bad as th previous days laaa horr ?? Ggaga , Thanks to th laughing till my perot cramps tau . Ohhhh my now im super damn shit fuck mad abt this blogg ! I cant upload photo that i took just now laa kans . Aiyoo Thambii ! Benci aku tauu !! Takpetakpee . too bad laa ehh korangskorangs butbut i will upload it at tagged/faceboook okey sayangs . nyahahaaha !!

To astri; Yeah babae , we are in th same mission both trying to get out from those two humans and move on . i knw its hard my dearest but im sure u can do it . i can see ur strong enough to believe and see whats right for u and whats not . I believe it you can do it . and so will i do th same way too baby ! Be strong and have to courage to face it even how bad it is u have to face th fact its your life u cant get away from this . We will finish this battle in a proper way & i knw & im very sure we will win this battle !!!

Labels: What they do we can do even better

Date Friday
Time Friday, August 21, 2009

Yesterday felt like a lil different . when i returned home from ncc . it was yeah late of course . tired & veryvery tired for sure . I was soo restless & soo i turned in early . I lay at my bed and this thought just suddenly came into my mind .

I miss my late mum . I didnt knw why i missed her but it was all out of a sudden . Tears kept rolling down . My heart was aching and yes i felt soo worst yesterday night . I knw there right there you will see how im tearing apart in life & how im feeling at that time . I miss everything about you . Your cares & love , ur cooking & etc . theres soo much about you too forget . Your th biggest person in my life that have done soo much to be marked in my mind now till forever . Its been 6 years . 6 years youve been gone from this world . How i wish you were here with me to share my pain , sorrows & laughter all togather . You have always been a part of my life and till now i had never forgotten about you . Im thankfull enough to god tt now i have a new stepmom that is really loving and caring just like you mum . Ohh my , my tears are falling now . I cant imagine having losing you that day . That day will be th day that im never gonna forget . I love you soo much & now ive learnt that your gone . Never coming back . Ive come a long way till now 6 years ive grown up tall & big enough . Back then i was just a small kid naughty & childish . Im never gonna let you be disapointed there . Im gonna do every bit to make you proud cause i love you so much Ibu & i miss you soo soo much Ibu . I wont erase you from my mind cause your my everything , everything in my life & heart that can never be replaced .



Your my precious beloved Ibu



by XoOrdinaryGirlox

The sparkle you bring to my life is like no other,
the sparkle only I can see and shows I'm you're daughter.
A short lived you've only lived so far
and to me you're my shining star.

Your angelic eyes to brown,
I only have to look at you
to feel the rush of love,
I wonder if others to, can see.

Sometimes you can be little pickles,
you only have to smile as drool trickles.
The best by far is the 5am gummy smile
as that definitely makes it all worthwhile.

Even you have gone to another world
Just remember every time you turn to me, you see
that I love you from now until eternity
And never forget those beautiful memories togather.

Labels: I miss calling you Ibu

Date Tuesday
Time Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Days pass soo fast nowadays . Time flies , its almost two months that his been gone . But still , im not gone from this fairytale just yet . How i wish i could get back & get started with all th fact and reality in live . w/o regrets , fears , sorrows , hurts and even th past memories . I dunt wish to get back to th past but when i think back why i really cant . people dont understand . i need time & space . Ooooh my this seems th hardest laa kans . But for sure i will try & even if it tales a longlong way to go im sure have to face it . No more hiding . Face it , Deal with it , Get over it .

Many things have been taking place a few days back . Bestie is feeling hurt so am i . I just pity hym like aloot gtuu . And to her gf yeah i pity her too . They have been togather for soo long and they have come this far . I wanna see them ending up in happy endings but i guessed it fail . & i doo feel disheartened too .


To bestiekuu ; Im always here for you no matter what . dont wury u will always have my support from th back and i will respect every decision u make maaaan ! Stay cool , be happy think positive , dont think too much . No matter how far you are im here just for you . Even if you just soo hard-heartened . hee :D


To everyone ; Im trying to be strong & dont worry about me . now is not th time yet for me to face th reality . just wait and i will change . Thanks to th encouragement and al th tons & piles of advices . All of it maked sense and get through in my mind and im never gonna dissapoint you guys . I need all of you like how you need me . Thanks & i appreaciate it sooo sooo sooo muchhh !!!

Date Friday
Time Friday, August 14, 2009

I thought i could do it . I thought time could stand still and stop where all th good moments were . I thought i could let go . but now why can i say go ? I rememvered few days back , th night was dark & dull . tears fell through my cheeks when i was readin ur old text . I wanted to delete it but why does it seems to be soo hard ? Whats soo good bout ur texts ? Why must i still care to read and keep it ? I just dont knw th reason why .. My life isnt getting better w/o you . But i try my very best to live life with laughter & smile all around . But friends wont knw whats inside me . Friends wont knw th inner me . Nobody knws & will never knw . I try my best to be with my friends & catch up every single thing they are doing . I try my every bit to cheer up & smile and make my day th best . I just hope that this days of hurts and sorrows could just leave me this seconds and minutes of my days . I just can stand it any longer . I try to keep away al my sorrows , hurts , sadness all aside but , there is this moment that everything that i try to put away comes back .


Anis & Me promised not to be in love right now and not to be in any r/s or stuff for now & enjoy life to th fullest . I hope i could to my very best and fulfill this .




Anyways,
HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY TO SHAIKH !! * Your th best guy ever in class eventhough at times u irritates me laa kans . hee :D

Date Monday
Time Monday, August 10, 2009

1) Are you single or attached ?
Ans : Single :)

2) Do you have a person you like ?
Ans : Yeapyeap

3)What is the name of your person you in love with ?
Ans : Its meant not to be told

4)If the person you in love and your mother dropped into the sea ,
who will you save?
Ans : Both for suree !

5)Have you hug someone before ?
Ans : Yeapyeap

6)Do you love your parents ?
Ans : Obviously!

7)Will you hug the want you love ?
Ans : Like duhh !

8)Are you willinq to do anythinq for your boyf/girlf ?
Ans : Anything ? Depends .

9)Are you jealous now ?
Ans : Uh ? What for ?

10)Who is the last person who msq you ?
Ans : Sallihin

11)Who is your clique ?
Ans : Not sure

12)Do you want babies in future ?
Ans : Yeahyeah !

13)Do you prefer MacDonald , long john silver or KFC ?
Ans : Everything !

14)Do you sniff glue ?
Ans : Exactly NO !

15)Do you smoke ?
Ans : NO ! never will !

16)If your boyf /girlf play 2 timer behind you , what will you do ?
Ans : Smack his bloddy ass

17)If you rich , what will you do ?
Ans : Shopshopshop ! && Save .

18)If the love wants held your hand , what will you do ?
Ans : *huge smile*

19)If the want you in love , reject you , what will you do ?
Ans : ohh , not sure ??

20)What is your favourite character ?
Ans : favourite character as in ?

21)Friendship or love ?
Ans : Friendship obviously

22)Cookie monster or elmo ?
Ans : Cookie Monster !

23)Do you use laptop or computer ?
Ans : Laptop

24)Do you like lollipop ?
Ans : Yeahyeah !

25)Do you have a diary ?
Ans : My blog is my diary .

26)there an admirer and
wont die heart , what will you do ?
Ans : Uh ? What ? Dont understand !

27)If you quarrel wit your boyf / girlf ,
and ask for a break up , what will you do ?
Ans : Try my best to save our r/s .

28)Are you blur ?
Ans : Yeah ! At certain times uhh .

29)If you can have your hair dye , what colour do you want it to be ?
Ans : Brown & Blone

30)Who is the last person you chatted with ?
Ans : HadyGilerk

31)How many boyf / girlf have you beaten before ?
Ans : Never once !

32)If you boyf / girlf do not love you anymore , what will you do ?
Ans : Respect his decision & leave .

33)What school are you in ?
Ans : Bedok Town Secondary School

34)Tag 10 bestie or friends to do this quiz?
Ans:
1)Rossa
2)Anis
3)Norra
4)Hazirah
5)Adilah
6)Saleha
7)Astri
8)IndahhWoww
9)FeellaBirdy
10)RieraMambolache

Date Sunday
Time Sunday, August 09, 2009

I wanna be happy like how i used too

Ive finally thought through myself , i finally realise that i dont need yoou anymore . i dont need anyone to prove to me that love is everything . I dont need love from you now cause my time was all wasted on you . i knw & i believe that i could do it and now day by day passes lil bits of you have gone apart . im quite impressed by that . I can move on and step further ahead like how you are now . I can be happy and enjoy whats life now like how you aree feeling too . All th tears & hurts i cast aside cause im sure thats not gonna solve everything . I dont need boys . && im sure i dont need you too(insert name) . I have to take my leave cause my life ahead is waiting for me & i wont knw what awaits for me tmorrow and th day after that . Im gonna treasure every bits of it cause i knw thay are meant to be kept . I dont wanna keep you close in my heart cause in my heart your not where you belong . I belong to someone else & so do you . That someone thats for us will come one day & im sure its just somewhere . I will get a better one then u expect & when that day comes i bet th past wont be reminded . I failed one , twice , thrice and manymany times . but for sure this time im not gonna fail . cause its gonna stop here for now . I dont wish to get hurt anymore . It hurts to see im failing everytime i try . but our failure will teach us how to succeed muchmuch more better . Only God knws what im thinking & what im doing everytime . & what i knw 'I dont love you no more' .


Anyways, HAPPY 44TH BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE .

Date Wednesday
Time Wednesday, August 05, 2009

When i knw it has long fallen apart , When i knw it has long gone forever , When i knw its never coming back , When i knw theres no hope for it anymore . Why would i still wait & wait ? Why would i have to make my tears fall every night i think of you . Has it ever occured your mind that i was hurt deep down inside & th cause was YOU ? i dont think so gyeah ? If you had ever knew this . I geuss you wont wanna care a bit of it right ? What was i trying to do ? What was i thinking of all this while ? What was i been waiting for so long but it never came ? It was all you !? I tried to recall back what my english teacher have said to th class abt her mistake in LOVE yesterday & i guess she was soo exactly right . Due to emotions our thinking could be distracted & its hard to think . And im sure whats my reason thats so hard to let go of you was this . I determined myself this lately that i will try my best not to ever think of you & tryna let go cause i knw ur not th one thats right for me & im not th right one for you . We are just fated to meet once & its time now we are going on with our own life . This is th best that i could say to make it clear that im tryna enjoy whats here with me & leave whats not appreciating me .

Date Monday
Time Monday, August 03, 2009

Todaay , was kinda okey laa kan . scholl aspernormal . during SS class , Mr hamdi was absence and half of th class decided to play True or Dare . Ggaga , i was in th game but wasnt attacked . Fenfen was attacked & i dared her to kiss her bf lip to lip and yeah she did it . Sweet huh ?
Tingtong! nothing to say for th rest of th school lesson todaay .

Friends kept encouraging me & kept supporting me from th back but why do i still feel soo low down to earth . i feel that im soo weak with or w/o them . yes its true i need them th most & they need me too . They have help me alot but why couldnt just listen to them and do whats best for me . Im sure they want th best from me but what about me ? Im not doing anything but dwelling on th samesamesame problem each day . i knw dwelling on it wont resolved anything but much more worst . Friends say 'MOVE ON' , 'YOU WILL GET A BETTER ONE THN HYM' but why am i still here ? With th thoughts of you running in & out of my mind . I dont wish to be hypnotised & fiiled up in my mind just because of you . I have tried my best . Really tried . But it will fail every second . It will fade soo easily . Its so hard to forget you . i should have believe in myself and have th courage that i can do it but it seems too little to make it there . This was th biggest mistake i did . & through all your hurts all th sufferings that ive been through all this while . no one knws me th best . People could say they understand me but i knw & im sure they have never understood me . they said it for just th sake of saying it . Boys do come & go but im glad my babygirls & friends do stay close to my heart & mind .

Some part of my life i have to pretend that im smiling happily and showing that im okey cause i dun wish to hurt th others .

Date Saturday
Time Saturday, August 01, 2009

Yesterdays pitcure :D

Date
Time Saturday, August 01, 2009

First foremost , you guys would be wondering who tht guy is and why im putting his picha here . Hhaha , His the one tht has help me thru alot all this while & i knew hym for almost 2 years i guess . &&&&
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZAIE !!!!!
May you have an enjoyable birhtday &everlasting fun todaay yeah ! Anyway , i missyou maan !


Lettme tell ya abt yesterday . Yeah went to Jalan Besar Stadium watched geylang united vs gombak united . its super slow th game . but lots of fun i had seriously i guess ? Im sure that he ________(insert name) was there too . i was like , whattheheck ehh ? he stare . i was like superly shocked ! Tears felt like rolling down but friends told me not to but stay strong and show hym that im hapyy . soo i did as i told but my heart felt uneasy . The game came to an end & it was tyme to part . Friends sume ajak gy makan soo i tagg along but didnt say a single word . i felt really quite uneasy seeing hym go away just like that . i hold on to my tears and finally told my friends i cant tagg them along & went back straight home .

To Rizal ; Thanks maan , u comfort me alot . i knw u cared abt me . ur th friend that i need & im sure you will always be there for me when im in need .

To that guy(insert name); im not sure what ur mind was going thru yesterday i guess i dun wish to knw abt it anyway . what i wanna tell you is that i tried to forget you but its kinda hard but i knw time will heal th pain of mine that you have hurt me soo much . Like your song in you blog 'Promise in th dark' . all ur promises were fake & not meant for me .ur promise were all a lie were all in th dark . i guess ur getting better with life now . Thanks to you im suffering . I hope i wont meet anymore guys thats just soo heartless like you . You came to me soo sweet but u left me soo sourwerish full of pain . I guess i knw this is whats meant for me . You will realise sooner or later that im th one that was once true to you before .

With love full of pain & regrets , it was such a sin knwing you whats more letting you go .

February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 .

Babes ;
♥♥♥JOASREE♥♥♥
♥♥Rossa♥♥
♥♥Saleha♥♥
♥♥Anis♥♥
♥♥Astri♥♥
♥♥FeellaBirdy&RieraMambolache♥♥
♥Milaaaahh♥
♥Nurul Aziefah♥
♥♥Adilah♥♥
♥Angy Seri Ayu♥
♥♥Nana Ketot♥♥
♥♥Eziey♥♥
♥♥Indahh Woww♥♥
♥ZainaSenik♥
Iikinn
Angy
Atikah
Alyaa
♥♥Aisha Begum♥♥
Beelah
Nasyithah
Fatin
Nisha
Sakinah
Raudhah
Nuraqilah
Sulastri
Cina-lian
♥♥Hazirah♥♥
♥♥Nora♥♥
♥♥Myra♥♥
AmirahElmo
Ila
IraBoncet
Alyaa Aqilah
Joyce
Jennifer
Vivien
Ummu

Dudes ;
♥♥Paul♥♥
♥Rauf♥
♥Syairazi Haziq♥
♥Radin Khairul Irwan♥
♥♥NicholasLimXiHao♥♥
♥♥NaimAdekuu♥♥
ZakiEddie:P
Irfan Audi
Firdaus
AnnDevilSatSat
Hendra
Indra
Masdi
Asrul