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Into thin air

2010-06-08T15:49:00.004+08:00

Feelings go away just like the wind as it is blown away
The scenery was just fine the day before
It was beautifully filled up with all the wonderful things we never thought could happen
But i feel its like just yesterday everything had happen
But its too late now too start back
I should have never thought about it
I should have never started it
But still iam here all just alright
Strong enough to stand upright
Just for myself
Just to satisfy this life of my own

After everything has change

2010-06-02T14:11:00.000+08:00

I feel like everything has faded .
Iknw i have someone .
Iknw im happier with that person .
But my heart just seems soo hard to let go , even if my mind says i have to let go .
Youve changed .
Ive changed .
Weve changed .
I dont know if thats you .
Someone , I need a shouler to lean on , to pour out all my sorrows .
=________=

Forever memory ;

2010-05-26T13:15:00.002+08:00

Ohhh yes ive not been updating this mundane blog of mine for weeeeks i .
Thats baaaad of me eeh ?
Busssssy witth school & blaaaahblaaahblaaaah .
Soo currently in school lab doing f&n coursework .
Seriously its killing me sioolx .
Stressed up ~
Lifes not been good to me . Like down almost all the time .
I dont really know what to do already with this life .
Give up ? Siaaaaans =_=

Ohhyes ! Serene & me is currently updating our own blog . Iam updating due to her forcing me to do so . Arsehole ^^
She still doesnt want to admit it soo just forget it ehhh . Anwaaaay iloveher . Last long with WILSON KIANG WEI JIE hor :))

I have nothing more to saaaaay already , i will try to update more often im i caaan eh .

Ohhwaaait . I misss all my physchobums . Paitaau siaa they all . Taakpe deeh .

Daadaaa ~

Shaaambarambaraaambaa - Shingerigeeeeluuu ;

2010-04-19T17:53:00.006+08:00

Woooowooo . Quuieet a saad thing to knw thaat its over dehh . OVER yknw . People dont have to knw whats over . It hurts but at th same time im just likee jumping updown siaa . WWooo ~~

Modaaay blues todaaay && its really bored . Ah-ma taak dataaang taak taau why ehh . Takpee . Massok class jee first period satusatu Reeya nyee PsychoBums daa buat haal . Satuu-satuu moddy deh . Some problems cropped up between some of them misunderstanding kateekaan .

TheenTheen , i , out of a sudden was doing my chemistry test adee SOMEONE niee carik pasal nan akuu . I fought with him Waaalaaaao ~ menyakitkan hatii siaa youu . Seriously . I wanted to start trusting youu in everything but since th waaay you react & th waay you saaay from your txt kaan . This trust is going further&further awaaay . Iam sorry to say this , butbut i would want to cherish this love & not losing youu . Sorry for my atiititude just now . Akuu tumbokk kaaaauu uhh if kaaau buat gituu lagii paat akuu ehh . Heeheee ;))

After school me & my PsychoBums went ouut to slacck & th dudes went to buy fo us icepop , As per usual deh . We though of not going remedial but then kaankaan semua go taapi did nothing in class but shoutshoutshout *winkwink*
There wasnt english remedial & soo me & my PhyschoBums decided to record a waaaacky-wooo video of us dancing singing & laughing like there's no one . It wass greaat Sumpaaah ! i will try & upload th video in facebook . MuaaahxMuaaaahx sayaaaaaang PhyschoBums akuu ~

Dooone fo todaaay . Daadaaa :))

This heart is yours ;

2010-04-17T18:27:00.006+08:00

Paper heart made by Aisha Begum ;

HeyyHeyyHeyy ,
Iknw i have been abandoning this blog of mine . It seems mundane thought &thats th reason why iam currently taking my time here updating this blog . I didnt wish to blog actually but just to kill time before going back to studying later onn .

Yesterday went to speech daay & to tell th truth it was sumpaaaah aweeesoomeeee naak gileeer ! Heehee ^^ With my PsychoBums around it was really a blaaaasssst . Went to lepaaaklepaak with my PsychoBums & th dudesss after speech daaay . Woooo ~~

As exams geeting near in 2 weeks more . Its quite a sad case this year as my midyear is gonna fall on my BIRTHDAY ! That truely hurts but no matter whaaat nothings gonna stop me . Ive gotta step up on my MATHS especially . It is really really a big nightmare if i fail my MATHS . Dont want to kene geletek with thaaat someonee ^^ . && Cikgu Fazillah told me that i have to take my Olevel mothertongue paper also during mid year . Ohhmy ! thats really gonna be a hard time for me . As i thought is gonna be only on endyear but nonono , mid year pon kenaaa . MATI laaa Reeyaaaaaaa ~~

To that someone ; Thanks fo taking your free time to teach me MATHS ehh . Thanks for wanting to help me to buck up & never stop to give me encouragements weather its for school or others . && Thanks for not failing to make me put up a big wide smile everyday .. SEPEEEEEEETSXX ~~

I guess thats all up for noow . I will try to blog more&more .
DaaadAA (!)

the truth never set me free

2010-03-16T14:02:00.006+08:00

Heeey

its currently march holidaays . & its gonna make me look dumb! cause boredom's gonna fill me up th whole week . sleeping & waking up latee thats my usual stuff .
Last sat went over to plaza singapura to watch 'DANCEWORK' . i wanted to watch my freinds & lilbro dancing but i was latee tak sempaat . thats baaad . Sorry koraangs ^^
Yesterday went out with mama , lilbro & bibik to cut our hair . & Yes(!) ive cut my hair short (?) haha . Short for me but for th others dont seems any much diffference . Maybe i say its short due to my previous hair that is much longer . Saaad . Anyway its waaaaaay uglier now . You people decide *winkwink*
& So todaaaay woke up reaaaal early to teman my dearest loveliest mama go market . Had our breakfast /went shopping / bought groceries / headed home .............

Lilbro is away to ncc spec course from todaaay morning till thursdaay . I will not have anyone to teman me till late at night & no one to find trouble & fight with me . Thats a sad one . The house will be silence w/o him . Awwwww . Someone do teman & entertain me . To lilbro . goodluck ehh kaau & takecare braat ^^

Daadaaaa ;))

You make me poppin champagne

2010-03-05T17:23:00.013+08:00

Beelah;Schyler;Yayah

Nick ;

Was supposed to take this alone they barged in ;

BBQ ;

Ily people ;

Togather

Rateefah's 15th birthday ;

Yazid ; Nick

Beelah;Rateefah;Yayah

Beelah ;

Schyler ;

Yayah ;

Yazid ;

This picture were all taken on 020310 . After school went back home & met them at Tamp & proceeded to Tanah Merah condominium .More pictures coming up at fb . Celebrated our ncc junior's birthday that was Rateefah . Happy 15th dear ^^ . The partaaaaye was really awweeesssommee !Should get out with them more often .

Sucha pity i didnt get to stay for the whole party had to rush & meet sis & went to window shop at City square had our dinner at LJS & went to Mustapha Center ^^ Reach home at 10 + + .

Had my ncc training yesterday . It was tiring as almost all of th part A didnt want to cooperate with me . I was incharge of part A ALONE & soo i had to bear with it . Am i too lenient & too friendly ? I cant be mad & scold people very easliy . I tend to laugh almost every part of my life . Im not a serious type of person soo please juniors cooperate with me eventhough im making jokes & not being too serious with ya'all . After ncc ended schyler didnt went back home with me due to something . She left me =_________= . Instead i went back with Yazid , Nick , Freddie , Horeah & LilBro . It was chaotic . Im gonna get master sergeant next training ! Like finally i achieved what i wanted .

P.e was average todaay . As per usual played soccer with helmi /farees & some other boys & with my lovelies for sure . Some didnt joined cause they had to run 2.4 . I didnt have to run cause i have done it last week . Pity schyler she got injured during playing soccer .

Anyway for those going fo th PARAMORE CONCERT do havee fun headbanging&shouting ! Haha ^^

post hardcore

2010-02-28T20:57:00.008+08:00

Ive been wondering how isit like performing live on stage with sucha huge aweeesome crowd . I wanna be like her singing with her melodious voice & her guitar . Its suree gonna be a blast . But lets not dream Reeya ^^

Todays 28february . i remembered 7years ago when i was only pri3 ive lost my mum . it was the most greatest shocking part of my life to know that your gone forever . It really hurts my heart . I was soo devastated . I never though that this could ever happen . It was too fast & i didnt get enough of your love mum . well , life still has to go on eventhough your loved ones arent with you . Im sad that you cant be with me & see me grow but im suree never gonna let you down mum . I ill make you proud of me even though your in farawaayland . May you rest in peace in heaven .
Ily ily ily & imy .........

Greatful enough to god to have send me sucha wonderful stepmomma . She aweeeessomee . She loves me just like her own . im gonna cherish her like my own momma too . Ily!

Iknw im being too sentimental now . Too bad i cant forget that tragedy .Lets loossen up a lil bit . As for sure ive been busy for school , cca & family & blablabla . School & Nlevel hsnt been able to get out of my head . its been sticking around since 2010 came . I hope nlevel will pass by fast-fast ehh . i dont wish too be too stressed up anymore . I wanna wind up & relaaax . *Goyaang-gooyaaang kaki*

For a moment

2010-02-23T18:00:00.005+08:00

Let me ease the ache in my heart ,
Cause when iam getting to start a brand new leaf ,
I will never be the same &
I know iam never too weak to go through this ,
Even if iam alone

She lives in a fairytale

2010-02-10T15:45:00.003+08:00

Hooooheyyy ^^

Currently im at school comp lab doing my f&n coursework . Its really sumpah th very toguh maan . Cannot tahan these stress ! I have to bear with it laa kaan . Sister have gone to repair th lappy last two daays . I hope it will be alright very soon . I really cant survive any longer w/o lappy doh ! Hahaha . Im currently lazy to do cause i really dont have anything to do at all . I mean not tt much laa of my work .

Ohhh my !! im seriously head over heels with this two songs ; Brick by boring brick sang by paramore & allways attracts by you me at six . These songs are really amazing ! Better hear it peoples :)) You cant miss th paramore song especially !! Hahaha .

Lettme tell ya about yesterday as im really feeling fucking dull right now . Had my geog remedial as per usual . Dinie th irritating idiot in class soo noisy . & now he is here kecoh jugaak as usual . After geog had chemistry remedial & i wasnt really in a good mood due to some reason & teacher was really in a bad temper & told th class tt remedial is canceled . I was too frust & just walk out of th class . Satu kelas muted ^^ Went to ncc room & hazirah , lilis & shahirah came there . Lilis went back first with her sayaang left we 3 . We chit-chatted till it was 5 & headed back home . It was really fun slacking & sharing stories & woes . Hahaha ^^ Should be done more often babes ~~

I have to get back to work maaaan ! sooo will posst more often soon ehh . Hope soo ^^

Chalobeteh ~

sudden twilight

2010-02-02T17:13:00.003+08:00

Hello ^^
Im currently at shahirah's house doing f&n coursework . She has help me aloot . && Soo ty ehh . Nnanti aku treat kaau yee . Lols .

Im done with my f&n . Not all but for now one section .

Im in a confused state everytime . Seriously speaking i dont see any hope from you . I feel that youved changed . Your not like how you used to be before a few months back . Its not that im misunderstanding you or what but in a positive way . I just wished that you were like before . I dont feel your love or care . Im always th one that have to start th conversation . Why is it like this . Too much of my thought isit ? Its been troubling me for way too long . Im sorry if this seems harsh to you but im not . && So currently my pp8 is low i cant give you a txt . soo please dont think negatively . Iloveyou ^^

Thanks to Aisayman ehh . Youve made me cheer up soo much & you have made my life much brighter with all your txts . Huaahuaa . Steam ehh mate ? Lols .

School is randomly boring . Its always a total mess everyday im in class . Im born to be loud teachers . soo please understand if im talking too loudly in class . Anyways class is always a chaos . Soo undersstood ehh .

Ive gotta go now . cHALOBETEH :))

Down to earth

2010-01-23T18:06:00.004+08:00

Im sorry for neglecting this dustydusty blog . I hate for not updating but i have good reason . I hate to admit that lappy is still spoilt . I cant do anything at home but just to sleep/study/entertain my mum & watch teevee . Its sucha pig ! i have to bear with it . I cant do w/o lappy !! i cant do my f&n coursework . Shyt . Dumbhead !! Alright stop whinning reeya !!
Now im at cyber near my house . with DEVI !! we were supposed to study but it went th other way round. went to parkway to eat and walk arnd there . BlaaaBlaaaBlaaa .

I have updated liao ehh .

Chalobeteh ;^^

Two better than one

2010-01-07T16:58:00.002+08:00

hEYYYhEYY !!
It seems that this blogg its sucha dusty onee . Letmme post a shortshort onee alrightoo . Anywaaay . I just finished my ncc . Life has been sooo greaat . N LEVEL is this year & im stressing up already . I have to STUDYSTUDYSTUDY almost everydaay . Ihope i could do well laa ehh . Wish me luck ehh koraaangs . I wanna go fo th Boys like Girls concert . But too bad i cant . Siaans laaa :(( && soo i have my reason tt i cant update due to my lappy is spoilt . Im sorry loveliess . && I have changed my 8 digits soo ask me if you want it .
Till here i stopp . Love & misses ;DD

Chalobeteh:))

Words speaks out everything

2009-12-11T20:43:00.006+08:00

As you all knw tt its been soo long ive been neglecting this mundane blog of mine . I dont really bother to blog anymore due to my plain lazy attitude & also due to buziness . Ive been keeping myself buzy to avoid some things tt is really bothring my life right now . Lets drop it .

I just came back from my Camp Pinaccle last friday . Iknw its all too late to talk abt , but i still insist in talking abt this . Firstly i thought th camp was just as th other ordinary boring camps but it wasnt . Although we had to go & visit lots of places tt wasnt really intersting those guys made it fun . What i meantby those guys were a bunch of a few guys from my platoon . Different races & comes from different school . Aliff , Teck Koon , Karthik , Arnold , Arfian , Kavi , Firdaus . They were th best among all . Especially Teck Koon , His th most popular guy in our platoon due to his hotness look . I admire him as his body is really hot . Th other girls were drooling too . Cheyy ! Kay forget abt him . Most of those guys came from th west schools . I didnt expect them to be tt friendly but being with them was th most memorial thingy tt i brought home &never forgetting abt tt . They were truely hilarious & all of them were really sticking with each other like brothers like as if they have known each other for quite a long time . The camp was quite a long one , it was fr 5 days 4 night . I wasnt from th same group with Hakeem soo didnt get to communicate & disturb him tt much . Sad huh ? Whatever itis my platoon was still th best especially having Sir Khairul tt is quite wacky being our PC . Too sum up everything it was soo fun & awesome & i miss being around them .

As for tmmorow & Sunday i would be attending cuzzy's wedding !!! I cant wait for that , But for sure till now ive been thinking abt what to wear for tmrw . Nehhh ~~ Metting my other cousinz tmrw would be greaat !! Lets have fun alright ? heeeheee :DD Beacuse of cousins wedding tmrw i would have to cancel my work for sunday . Sad abt tt but its alright cousins more important than work . I guess so laa eh .

I dunnt really knw what to say right now . There isnt anything elese i wanna say .
I'll write more when time to come .

Soldiers pull th trigger

2009-11-21T18:39:00.004+08:00

Ive expected this to happen & iknew it its gonna happen . Waiting for it to come . I was ready all th time to face it & when it striked i was prticularly shocked but wasnt tt really shocked . I was speechless . I was weak at tt point of time cause just woken up from my beautiful dreams but it was crushed once th txt came in a sudden . It was alright for me . Iknw i have to face it & iknw right from th start tt it will end sooner or later . I was right . That wasnt any ' forever ' . Let it be . It do hurts but tears did not fall down my cheeks . it seems a lilbit weird but lets just say th best heal is TIME .

Life has been cruel towards me theese days but im still holding on . I dont know how long i could hold on but im trying to keep it long . I feel like passing out anytime but th time isnt appropriate . One problem isnt ended yet but yet another one came upon me . I reallyreally do need a break . Just wanting it to be back as those days mummy ..........

Im reallyreally looking forward to th 24th this coming tuesday . th 3a3s would be having a class bbq at east coast & im soo soo excited & delighted to go . I would get to meet my lovelies & th other chinoneys ehh ehh ehh . I miss them like soo soo soo fcvking much . It must be th booomb-booombssxx ehh koraangs . Im gonna make it th most awwweeeesooomeee daay ever . Ooooooolaaaaalaaaalaaaaa ~~~

Never has its end ?

2009-11-17T16:56:00.004+08:00

How wonderful would it be if i could admire th sunset rise & fall & admire th how beautiful th rainbow could ever be ........ [ DREAM ON ]

Yesterday i had lots & lots of fun . i should say i had average fun . I went for th shooting competition with th boys & th girls . Aiming th center was really hard but i had no problem after some practices . Heehee :DD
After it was done we waited for our results . Some of them bought food & drinks . Me & horeah left our wallet in school soo had to share with th others . I being th iriitating one distured Hafiz&Azmy while eating . My stomach was grumbling soo i made them gave me some till Hafiz was too frust & he gave me all . Haha Thanks ehh Hafiz ! Sayaang kaau . Lol ! Fuck you ^ ^
We waited for th bus for almost 40 mins . But th wait was worthwhile . Haha :D
Thanks Miss Lee for th Slurpee ehh . ^ ^

Today was nothing special . it was no different as any other day . It was a bore as usual . Help daddy alil to put up &shift things up & then BLABLABLA . What should i say . Nothing better or good gonna pop-up . I wanna forget everything & get away from th real life but iknow its never too easy to leave everything right . Forget that reeya .

Chalobeteh ; Ass-es

Till th ground

2009-11-08T17:00:00.005+08:00

TAAAADAAAAAA !!!

Im back people/ladies/gentleman/jerk/bitches/frens/lovelies etc & etc . Im too boored actually . Since th day i was back till now i had nothing to do but everyday it repeated th same old thang . I wanna WORK !!! But iknw im not allowed too ): Haiissh . I want MONEYMONEYMONEY & lots of them . I wanna be HAPPYHAPPYHAPPY everytime . can i ? okaay ~~~stop thaat .

Mt Ophir trip was deepdeepdeeep AWEESOME !!! You guys just would be able to imagined how big & how great my AWESOME is . Yeah it was tiring during th hiking part . i almost fall into pieces but due to Miss Lee 's & Zaki's encouragement . I persevered & reached th top . Zaki thanks for teman-ing me ehh all th time & telling me not to give up eh . The top was soooo greaaat ! It was cooling & th atmosphere was sooo perfect . I could see th whole landmark & i feel soo good being on th top . Going back down th mountain was a disaster but still it wasnt tt bad afterall . Met up with Zaki & frens in in th middle of th mountain & walked off togather with them to th campsite .

I left th other girls behind as i was happily talking to Zaki & Hakeem abt tt someone . Haha :)
Ended up all th other girls went up th van with th teachers while i walked all th way to th campsite with Hakeem & Zaki . They were greaat afterall . I had fun walking with them despite i needed th toilet & also my feet was alll pained uh due to blisters . Fuhh ! To sum up th distance to th campsite was a 3hr walk . Tooot-Toooot ):

At night was supposed to sleep at th tent but due to th heavy rain our tent was filled up with water . I , Shahirah & Anis went over to chitchat with Zaki && kawan2 . They were fun to be with laa to saay . Evrerything i would say thay were there . They were th most kecoh-est group of boys in th camp . Hahaa . Hope to meetya guys again ehh . Imissyaa guys singing & making noise in th bus while all were sleeping & making funny noises& jokes to just lighten up th atmosphere . Heehee :D

............. & Soo todaay i just finished cleanning my room . It was a big mess but i managed to do it all by myself . I was feeling abit giddy todaay & im not suree why . Nehmind i just need some rest i guess so . For th next few days i wont knw what i would be doing laa kans . I guess i will continue rotting & rotting & rotting again at home . Fcuking shit ! Haiiyaaa .

Gondol !! 4 more days baby . Im waiting for tt daay . Huaahuaa . Kaay LOL ! Iloveyou soo much but mostof all i really2 miss you maaan . Anywaay . Im sorry for everything i really2 still very guilty ): Like i said . your my ONE & Only LOVE :D trust me .

.....................Bang-Bang !

count th days

2009-10-16T22:27:00.007+08:00

Im happy with life right now . Sort of laa kans . Being with him is wonderful but not quite sure of thatword 'wonderful' yet . I just hope it will turn out like what i always wanted & hoped for . Hmms ,yes ive gooten my results back but only 3 papers gotten back todaay . I passed my english i can say its done not bad for malay i passed also i could say its aweesome ! cause i got th highest ehh . Weeewit*bangge kejaap hor* whereas for my geog i was slightly dissapointed cause i failed but a differenecce of pathetic two marks . SUCHA WASTE ! grrr ! im damn so feeling regret abt it haiyaak ! i want my two marks caan cher ? heeeheee :D i hope that my CA marks will pull me up ehh .

As for maths/science/ss/f&n ive nt gotten it yet . will be getting it next teusday . no harapan laa to say to all this subject accpet for my f&n & Just hoping my ss also ehh . huaaaakXD !

just wish me luck people . Anyways , i was selected to go PERTH this coming november but grr ! shyytxxt ! i cant seii . The trip clashed with my MT OPHIR trip . haiyaaak ! will miss that golden oppourtunity . just my luck rightt . )):

Haiyaaak ! Yeaah peole , ive been couting down to this two days ; GONDOL's birthday& shifting to my brand new house .Heehee . i still got soo much things to pack but im just too plain lazy to do that . Grr ! someone help me can? heehee ;D Gondol's birthday is coming in 5 days time & im gonna spend my time with you like i promised kaay b? I will be shifting to my neew house 5 days after that . Fuhh! happy sungguh aku :))

This coming friday to saturday i will be having ncc camp in school . Fuhh ! woooaalaaaoweeiiiyaaaoo ! soo manyy events lehx . Soo tired . shyyytxx ! i will soo gonna miss that GONDOL of mine .

Manyymanny loves ;

Thankyousoomuccch ;))

2009-09-30T19:38:00.005+08:00

Tuesday ;

Ily;Babes

Fun shot ;))

Khairiyah with Khairaiah

Dearestclosestbestfriend;ILY!

Mate suu sepet !*wootwoot*

Norra;Ly;Shahirah;Reeya;Hazirah;AishaBegum;Amira;Sulastri;Dee;Lynie<3

Sulastri's house ;))

Monday ;

Nenek soo cuutee woii !

She's smiling ;))

Iloveyou ; Nenek(tiri)

As you can see two days of jalan raye was sucha blast . On monday went out with mama/ayah/lilbro/nenek !! Ilove my nenek woii . I really had fun on that day . too tired to elaborate already ehh ehh ehh ;))

For tuesday outing it was super-dee-duper syioookkk plus aweeesssooommeee woii ! Kecohh siaa satu satu perempuan . Macam mak nenek . Cheyy ! Huaahuaa . Kaaykaay . Akuu sayaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnng koraang . More pictures would be uploaded v.soon on tuesdays outing ehh ehh ehh ;))

Now im feeling soo v.th weak . My stomach cramps from school just now till now hasnt cured yet . Im bearing with th pain cause i knw im strong laa kans . I had lots of rest just now but tetaap now i feel much more worst then before . Grr ! Aku benci ssiiooolllxx ;((

Its like this or Its like that

2009-09-27T17:59:00.009+08:00

See my brown eyes . Its ORIGINAL ! 'LAWL'

Closest Cousin;Amalina <3>

Iloveher <3>

Hafizah <3> Sister & Lilbro <3>

Yaooooooowwww !! Okey as promised ive uploaded th rest of th raye pictures ehh ehh ehh . Happy taak ? Cheyy . Huaahuaa . Bestie has been a goodboy nowadays . He update his blog soo often now & like i say to hym he has change better then before hor . Iloveyou ehh BESTIE ! Haha :))

Yesterday went to view our my new house && yeaah i was superr-dee-duper damn shocked ehh . Its super big ehh ehh ehh . never gonna elaborate more ehh later when time is good i tell koraanggs horr . Just to let you all knw kaan i will be shifting to th new house in 1 or two months time . Im soo gonna miss my kawankawan @ TAMPINES ehh ehh .

I will semalam nyee gambar ehh v.soon .

Sedare come already lehx soo i have to layan dorang lehx now . Takecre ehh people :))

Here i go again

2009-09-26T00:13:00.004+08:00

Wootwoot ! People ; Do i look like a chinese ? I dont think yeaah hor . Besties fren thinks soo that im one . Haha 'LAWL'
Time now shows that its already 0020 at still not asleep . Im not that tired or sleepy just yet . Cause , tommorw kan saturdaay bolei laa tido late-late ehh . Huhu !!
Ive read bestie's blog just now ehh . He says he miss me & never gonna lose me ehh . Haha . Paul ; Imy too alooot siiaaaaaa bestiekuu ! Haha . Im never gonna lose you ehh ! Your my one & only true bestie ever hor . Dont leave me hor chinoney :))

Now i have nothing better to do . I have nothing to say soo lettme tell you . Cousins from my mums side came just now . and sumpaah its kecoh lorr due to th Makchicks there . Haha . Wootwoot ! Watched 'Zombie kampong pisang'just now and its super th damn funny horr .

Mummy & daddy says trmw nak kena tengok rumah pulaak . I malas lehx . baru nak jalan raye sioottx . But what to do have no choice kena laa ikott ehh ehh ehh . To let you all knw im gonna shift house in 2 months time i guess . Heehee :))

Stuffs it all up

2009-09-24T16:48:00.010+08:00

Cousins<3>

Naim;lilbro<3>Amalina;Asyikin;Reeya

Lovees<3>Family picha w/o first bro

Maid;Yanti

Sister;Nisa<3>

Candid shot <3>Togather;with love<3

Selamat hari raye to you people again ehhhs .

As you can see my family didnt wore th same colour for this year and yeaah i didnt mind either .

Raye was kindaa okeey not too bored not to th extremely fun . This year seems much more awwful then th pervious years laa . Im kinda not in th raye mode && im not suree why .This isnt th only picture theres more coming up okeey . But most of all i do enjoy gathering with my family & stuffs :))

Life ; Its been going up-down-up-down . I had fun with family && especially friends . They have been giving me th courage whenever i was down . I tried my best to overcome every obstacle i came upon but each time it ends i tend to look back to th past && questions starts falling in my head . I feel that what i neeed isnt still there . Seacrhing & waitng but im sure its never gonna come too soon . Never i imagined life would be soo cruel to me at this point of time .

Love ; To my 'used to be loveer' Im grateful enough to knw that youve finally found th person that you wanted & waited for . I feel happy for you . But at th same time too i feel soo disheartened . Idontknw why or what . Why this feelings is still running through in-out from my heart . This feelings is as if playing with my heart like how you played around with my feelings . Why didnt you notice how pure this love could be . Icant be botered by boys or whatsoever anymore . Like a sentence in malay says ; Tertutup sudah pintu hatiku .

School ; Its been sucha disaster laa woii . I didnt get to pay much attention in class this few daays butbut for todaay in maths lesson its like in a world book history i did th work as im told and also did copy what MR MARK KWAN noted on th whiteboard . Reeya kau sungguh GOODGIRL . Huaaak XD ! Exams coming near i have to gear up my speed & revise what i can horr . I dont wish to faill asshole :))

Paul ; First thing first lettme say Aku saaaayaaaaaaannnnng PAUL woii :))

His been soo good ehh this few daay . He do cheer me up & brighten up my life . I feel soo lucky to have sucha awwweeeeeesooomee bestie kan kan kan ? Agree taak ? Hoohoo :)) Im never gonna lose you ehh paul your th bestest of th bestest bestie i ever kneww . Lateer your birthdaay i meet you ehh 'insyallah' ehh . huaak ! Bestie ; Im gonna love you when noones left :D

Secret ; Letmme tell you people something . Haha .Todaay i heard besties voice baru bangon tidoo woii . CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE !! hahahahaha :)) Sorry saaayaaaanng ehh .

Fridaay night out

2009-09-19T10:56:00.009+08:00

Happy 15th birthday dearest Hazirah;))

Sakinah Kambeng;P

Joel&Azizi

Lynie;Tubagus;Rauf;Norra

With Rafi&Sakinah

Rafi;Hazirah;Nicholas;Haikal

15th birthdaay!

Naim

Siblings

All this was yesterdayss . picture . Yesterday planned cock up like shittt laa kans . Last min rizal didnt have th mood to come . He txt me when he have waited for me at my bustop . HAIIISSHH . Long sigh && aftertat i had a ba mood . Fuhh !

Went to buke at mac & i had macspicy ! SEDAAAAAPPPXX !! Thn rafi planned to go grandlink for karaoke . && soo we went off . Reach ajee gedebakbedebuk tootooot . best shyiokkk gilerr mautss oii ! Kecoh sia bilik kiterorang . camwhored & everyone sang birthday song for Hazirah . Wootwoot !

Gedebakgedebuk reached home arnd 1130 .

Ilove && I really had a good time yesterdaay . syannngg korang .

&& To rizal ; Im am mad a lil but im okey already . mext tyme i will tell you earlyearly ehh dude . Heee; D

Before i forget && if i dont get to update tmrw , weeheee tmrw hari raye woii !!

Tak sabar oii akuu . best nyee !! Gaga , will enjoyy to my fullest tomrw yeaah .

To all th muslims ;

Selamat Hari Raye Maaf Zahir dan Batin .

Pee-kaa-Boo

2009-09-15T23:01:00.003+08:00

As you can see im soo fcuking bored too daay && thats why i took pichaa yaaaooow . Gaga , bear with me for awhile ehh . Hmm currently txting with bestie akuu . I own hym alootalooot of things lehx . Kesian siaaa akuu ! =_= . Takpee syaaang nyee pasal lorrr . Gaga , Okkey todaay was super not my bestest day . Fought with freddie for some personal matters & after awhile we are cool back .&& Ended up me , shahirah & anis tak puasa . Haha , at night went out with shahirah & met freddie after that . Okey aku sunnguh sayaaangg sama itu shahirah . Hoho :D

oouuuhwooo ! Backiess !

2009-09-14T17:17:00.002+08:00

Wootwoooot !!
Hello semue ! I know ive long gone & didnt blog since last mondaay . fuhh lame tuh !
And yeaaaaaaahhh booboo ! Im back from camp & all my busyness . gaga .
I really had a very long & tiring week last week & till now maseh penaat dok .
Camp was super-dee-duper fun oiik ! Tough you could say cos its an NCC camp . && Lettme tellya people i have a small tiny-weeeny crush on this guy ; Fadhil/Faddil (im not sure about the spelling laa ehh )
Alamaaak melting sia akuu . Fuhh yeah i can say his the friendly type as he smiled at me abck first on th first day && oooh maaan his never out of my mind still till now wooooiitt !

&& I suddenly realised that i ddint think even one single think about you *my used to be lover* I guess im out from your *sweet* world . I dont exsit there anymore . I have tried my best & now i guess ive done it bebeh ! He was filled in my mind alomost everyday in th past but now im too busy & too tired to think about you maan . Im suree ive gotten someone better then you . even if ive not gotten it , im still happy with my life & im sure that my 'Superman' will come oneday . *will wait* | See people , I can do it !! |

Fuhhh !! 6 more days oiiii untok puasa ajee ! yeaahyeaah tak sabar akuu oii ! And then daa nak raye weehhhoooo ! Aku tak sabar laa ! Korang sabar tak ? Cheyywaa , Im not sure what colour im gonna wear this year . maybe it yellow tapi mama nak purple laa . Adoii ! Pening-Pening nak raye laa katekans . Cheyydebaah . Oooh maaan alltogather i have wasted 11 days of not fasting due to some reasons & malas & others laa ehh . Hoho , tetap nak raye jugaak ehh ! Gaga :D

Wiill try to blog often ehh IF i got time & IF i not MALAS ! nyahahaha .

Chalobeteh :))

Schedule

2009-09-07T00:16:00.004+08:00

070909 ; Doing f&n coursework with Sulastri & Jovita :D

080909 ; To Nanyang Poly for f&n briefing

090909 ; To Nanyang Poly for f&n briefing

100909 ; Senior spec camp

110909 ; Senior spec camp

120909 ; Senior spec camp

Okey semua this is my schedule for this one week holidays . Ohh my holidays aku macam bukan holiday . harihari adee jee aku busy . Hmm , i wont blog that much this week due to busyness . && I wish all th best for those who are taking thier n levels okey . Good luck koraaaangss ehh !!

Dada :D

Paul

2009-09-04T21:33:00.002+08:00

Chatted with bestie just now . I damn fcuking miss hym & yeah atlast get to chat with hym ehh . Lepas jugaak rindu aku pat diyer . Actually the day before baru jee txt but then miss hym like hell already . Woohoo !! Hmm , It maybe a long post soo bear with it ehh korangss ! Hee-Hoo :D

Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
bestiee ?
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
sry !!!
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
haha . selenge uhh youu
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
sry la
wait 1 sec
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
haha , nehmindd
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
wanna change font ar
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
okeyokey
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
ok
done
^_^

so mcm u ???
baek?

Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
haha
baek ?
okey laa
ehh suare u laen horr
i thot my adek
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
sry2
got little bit for sore throat ar
haha
and
asal feel lyke crying??
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
what ?!
you saket ?
taknak bilang
uhh ?
takde pape
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
!!!!
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
no need to knw
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
bilang la sotong
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
takdee apape laa pakcik !
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
bilang la sotong !!!
i got things tell u
but when u got thing dont wanna tell me
EEEEeee !!!!
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
ala u
beh nak marah ehh ?
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
no la
siao !!!
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
abeyy ?
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
wanna marah u for wat???
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
haha okey bagoss !
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
BILANG !!!!
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
ehh u still sick go eat obat !
alaah
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
yeah
but okay alot already...
haha
BILANG LA
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
your pantat laa
nathing laa
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
at here
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
you ehh
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
why??
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
ehh jahat
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
hahahahaha
where got??
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
yee laa tuh
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
faster TELL !!!
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
ehh you at where nie ?
taknak !!
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
oh
i at cyber !!!
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
nothing laa
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
with kwan2
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
ooohhhhh
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
boring ar at home
somemore nothing to do
then go cyber lor
haix
hmm
u daa makan??
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
ooh . ehh / kesian ..
baru jee habes eat laa
youu daa makan ?
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
ar...
blom !!!
^_^
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
=_=
asal belom ?
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
-.-
lazy
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
otak luh laa ahbeng !!
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
ehk !!!
i not AH BENG OKAY
i good boy hor
hahahahahaha
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
hahah . perasan horr !!
korek mate !
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
u dare !!!
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
dare lor!
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
have to admit wat
i'm a good boy
bcoz i'm
haha
i've change alot already lehx
haha
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
ehh ?
i dunnoe pulaak eyh
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
even since i break up with that bitch
i change alot lor...
haha
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
oiii !
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
dont really go out already
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
apee bitch
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
she is a bitch !!!
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
taknak dengar ehh tuh sume word
aik !
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
sry2

Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
tau pon takot
hahaha
cheyyy
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
hahaha
haix
forget about her la
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
yaa forget abt her laa
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
she's just a pieces for cake to me la
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
eleh !
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
without her i also can live wat
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
i knw . tapi tetap korang daa 1 year bey ckp gini .
eleh .
merapek uh
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
1year?
nothing la
she's just a teman onli...
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
teman ?
hahah merapek !
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
yeah !!!
i treat her as one la
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
otak u la
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
but dont know wat she treat me as la
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
haha boifren laa
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
dont know la
haix
dont care about her la
now i care about me, u, and my family...
thats all...
Hie - Reeya [ Feel like crying ] says:
hahah eleh
macam paham hor
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
yeah ma
me, myself, u, my bestie, and family dont need said la...
haha
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
hha ..
yee laaa
takyah ckp sia family priority oiik
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
yeah la
how also family la..
haha
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
like duhhh !!
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
ehk besite !!!
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
hyuh ?
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
u lyke malibu ar??
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
*huh ?
otak luh !
no laa
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
then???
cause i lyke drinking the malibu dream from coffeebean ma
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
hahaha
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
though u lyke also
haha
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
merapek laa luh .
anyhow ajee
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
really la..
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
yee laa . apee laa deknie
bestie!!!!
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
huh??
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
your pp8 maseh low ehh ?
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
yep2
i know
u gtg right??
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
no laa
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
then??
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
sapee ckp
just ask onlyy
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
oh..
though u wanna go...
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
u gtg ehh ?
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haix
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
haha
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
nope !!1
me till 10 then go back
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
ooohh !
syiok nyee!
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
where got shiok??
cold got la..
hahaha
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
alahaii kesian diyerr
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
the aircon lyke that father company lyke that dont need money want when they open
till so cold
have to wear jacket...
haiyo
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
hahah . go wear ur jacket then /
you daa saket .
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
i wearing lehx
haha
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
oohhcheyy .
manee laa i tau
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
and bestie !!!
1 more thing
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
yaa
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
when we meet up hor
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
yaa
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
u have to treat me something
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
huh ?!
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
>.<
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
what ?
=_=
rabak perr
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
the MALIBU DREAM
can??
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
banyak2 aku !
apee seii !
you laa
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
can or cannot??
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
no !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
okay
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:

^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
hahaha
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
nvm la
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
ehh ?
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
i buy myself
haha
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
bestie ?
okey not ?
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
yeah !!

wat thing??
wat thing ok??
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
eleh .. takmuh merajok horr
ala . i belikan laa kaay
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
i not merajok la...
haha
i askin onli..
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
abeyyy
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
if cannot then nvm
haha
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
haha . can laa
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
okay !!!
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
cheeeyy
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
u said want ar...
nananana
hahahahaha
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
haha tengok dulu laa
ehh !!
jahat uhh
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
hahahaha
where got???
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
takpee ..
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
i want large want hor !!!
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
oii !
baceen laa
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
u buy for me that then i bring u go eat
i pay for the food !!!
okay???
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
haha eleh !
macam paham !
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
really...
i not joking la.
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
haha yee laa .
ehh but not soo soon tau . next week i fully book already .
haha
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
ehk !!!!
i book u first lehx....
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
haha , when sei ?
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
got lor
when i mention i wanna meet u up
i got said i book u already ma..
u forget ar??
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
haha . alamaak .
besti sorry laa
i remeber
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haix
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
but i got school laa
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
oh...
said la...
haiyo
haha
then lyke that have to wait till next month already lor...
hahaha
can wait ma u??
Hie - Reeya [ Aint malibu barbie ] says:
wait ? wait what ?
wait to meet u ehh ?
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
yeah...
not u meet me...
i meet u
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
nyahaha . oohh .
same laa tuh kan
u meet me i meet u
still meet apee
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
but i mention first so i go meet u lor...
haixyo
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
haha . yee laaa paul ehh
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
i can wait nyee .
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
good...
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
ehh but next year can ?
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
then set ar...
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
hahahahaahahah
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
and REMEMBER !!!!!!!!!!!
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
set uhh
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
next month on the 8th
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
asal ?
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
i BOOK u 1 whole day ar...
asal???
oh..
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
thursday cannot laa syg .
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
hmm...
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
i school
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
then when u can
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
next year ?

^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
LOL
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
haha .
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
where can lehx
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
kaay laa . on th 9 or 10 lorr
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
hmm
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
when u want ?
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
wait ar
hmm
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
10 canoot !
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
on the 11
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
canoot lehx
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
which is sun
HUH???
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
thats why cannot sunday tau
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
all cannot??
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
hahaha
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
then sat?
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
what date ?
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
10
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
hmm ... my jie bday laa
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haiyo...
u lyke business women lehx
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
haha well !
hahaha
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
lyke everyday got meeting want...
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
like duhh
cheyy
katee reeya mah
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
hahahahaha
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
who ask u be my bestie
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
okayokay
just dont let me know where u work onli..
i'll go down and find u want !!!
haha
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
kenapee ?
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
cannot MEET U
then i just go down find u la..
easier
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
ehh ehhh
apee seii
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
no choice
who ask u to be my bestie
hahahaha
kene balik
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
apee seii
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
hahahaha
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
:9

^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
then so hard to meet u...
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
haha
alaa u niee .
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
bestie !!!
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
kaay laa . hari raya leh meet kan dol !
apee?
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
i go smoke break for ahile
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
adoii .
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
wont be long
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
kaayy lorr goo
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
okay
am done !!!
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
ooohhh
okey good !
haha ceepaat nah ehh
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
chat with u ma
must fast
haha
if not hard to txt u already lor..
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
eleh
ahaha
u gy laa topup !!
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
also must wait ma
got money then can topup
now mummy and jie never give me money lor
have to earn myself
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
oooh . yaa you big boy already what !
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
yeah ka
haha
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
like duhh
haha
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
some more must save money for next year private o
haixyo
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
woooaaaahhhh !!!!!!!!
private o ehh bestie ?
cheyy
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
betol tak ?
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
yeah
no choice
yeah
i applied already..
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
haha . bagos lorr !
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
now must wait next year lor...
then can go..
haha
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
good luck ehh bestiee !
haha
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
who wanna stuck at one N lvl in this world
haha
thanks
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
yeah !
study hard tau !
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
yeah
i will
haha
u also must study hard wor...
haha
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
hahah .
i will maan .
cheyy
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
make sure
so yeah
how many already u own me??
i own u 7
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
own what ?
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
plus today..
haha
how many days already u never puase?
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
ooohh
actually 7 .
then todaay i also tak puasa .
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
then?
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
8 lorr
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
rememeber to give it to me when we meet ar..
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
haha . ala !!
i wont laa
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
I DONT CARE AR>>>>>
i dont wamt give me i take from u ar..
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
huh ?
tak paham .
how to take
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
if u dont want give me my 8 kisses when we meet
then i take from u
haha
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
haha . how to take
cannooot
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
i kiss u means i get 1 from u la..
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
haha .
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
then my want also from there count lor...
hahahahaha
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
merapek hor u !!
manee leh
tak fairr !!!
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
hahaha
i dont care...
u own me want !!!

Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
ehh !
tapi sape yang strt dulu ?
kena kasi dulu uhh !
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
me la...
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
then
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
okay !!!
i anything want !!!
jahahaha
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
anything want !
ur head laa
u suke ehh
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
suke la...
hahaha
no gf...
hahaha
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
eleh .. yee laa . abey i sengasarw
*sengsare
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
sry la...
haha
but no choic
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
hahah ..
no choice meh ?>
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
haha
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
ellen adee apee!
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
yeah yeah
tak nak ar...
see how first...
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
eleh
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
bestie !!!
gtg already...
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
see how first kerr?
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
mummy msg me alread...
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
oohh
okey lorr
=_=
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
bye !!!

sry..
Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
takecre byebye !
takpee
^^+=///[C][H][I][V][A][S][T][A][R]\\\=+^^ says:
takecare !!!

Hie - Reeya [ Fucker he ] says:
kaay u too

Blast everything in mind

2009-09-03T20:32:00.003+08:00

Okey canteek , i wanted to upload th picture hor but then hor tau apee jadiik tak hor kan horr . haha , adeee error laa apee kee bendee also dunnoe horr .
Stop it with th horr horr ehh horr .
Kayy cukop REEYA =_=

Dearest love Astri ; Thanks for being there for me all this while my dearest . Youve help me aloot & i knw you do really care for me . I appreciate that love . Im happy for you that youve moved on & forgotten abt your use to be lover . & now soo called nothing to you anymore . Im trying my very best to do just that . I will always be there for you & no matter what i will pull through this smoothly .Ily babe !

Dearest Zaie ; Thanks for th encouragement youve gave me just now & im superr happy for you as your life have turned out soo awesome . I knw you care & i do care about you too . I will make sure you feel proud of me & not to worry about me . I will surely takecre of myself pretty well & im gonna concentrate on my studies & do well alrighty ? Thank you soo much:D

Everytime i open my eyes , i thought abt you . Why i cant forget our moments togather ? When can i forget you ? Why isit soo hard still . Its been afew months back since it happens . but why till now does it runs through my mind . I still keep you txts . Why cant i still delete it ? I try not to care about you . I try to forget you . I try to hate you but it failed timelessly .I know you wont change abit & i knw u wont look back to me & come back from where we ended . But how i wish it could really happen . I knw its impossible for all this to happen . It maybe a fairytale in my dreamland or maybe it wont happen either .Everything about you seems to last in my mind . it seems soo sweet like sugar . How i wish it could turn rusty very soon & let bygones be bygones . I dont wanna hurt myself future . I knw i have to move on & get on with life somedaay . And im soo sure that you have moved on now & im sure nothin to you . How i wish i could be like th other of my frens smiling & feeling joy all around with their lovers while here i am suffering . This isnt life that i wished & hoped for .

In th open

2009-09-01T12:36:00.000+08:00

Heelloooo ! its been so long since i last updated laa kans koranggs ? Oooh , lazy you know & have been busy all this while . Ookey llettme tellya guys . Yesterday was super-dee-duper fun oiik ! I get to camwhore non-stop eventhough how sick i am . Oooh my aku love dorang mereka semua . Okeey . My intention to update this blog was just to upload pictures that were taken yesterday . Butbut everything went upside-down laa ! Blog is soo nasty nowadays . Bilee time taknak upload gambar adee tau then when nak upload hilang dook .! Babii . =_=

I will load th pictures soon ehh korangs .

&& my purpose for updating this blog was because my dearest Astri<3 yang suroo laa from that time . but only now i wanted to do it ehh .

Soo lettme tellya guys about my life now .

My life seem sucha a disaster nowadays . it gets bored everydaay . Nothing new happen . New friends yaa its normal but forgetting that someone seems too hard still . Aloot of things happen to that someone all this while & i could see your happy enough with or w/o me in your life ya'right ? Ohh my ! what did i do till i deserve this kind . I just hate being in this situation . I knw im not in th wrong & im clearly blank about your drastic changes . Ive been trying my best to let go of you many times ive said that . But still it doesn not show any improvements .

Exams are coming veryvery near maan . Few weeks away . im catching up with studies & have been trying to think positively . Im very nervou & i really2 hope i wont retained . I DONT WISH TOO . !!

Oky people my pp8 has been top-uped soo anything beep me there if i dont seems to be here in th cyberworld yaaaooow .

2009-08-26T23:12:00.007+08:00

Wooh ! im too tired too talk . let the pictures communicate ehh ? enjoys okey everyones ! This was all taken during school lessons from last weeks & this weeks . takecre & goodbye .

2009-08-24T20:54:00.002+08:00

Oooohh my todaay was super fun laa kans . enjoy most of my lessons with two of my freakos(sayang) That was sulastri & queenie . Camwhored almost most of th period . I can say i enjoyed it soo much . Seems like todaay my fasting wasnt seems as bad as th previous days laaa horr ?? Ggaga , Thanks to th laughing till my perot cramps tau . Ohhhh my now im super damn shit fuck mad abt this blogg ! I cant upload photo that i took just now laa kans . Aiyoo Thambii ! Benci aku tauu !! Takpetakpee . too bad laa ehh korangskorangs butbut i will upload it at tagged/faceboook okey sayangs . nyahahaaha !!

To astri; Yeah babae , we are in th same mission both trying to get out from those two humans and move on . i knw its hard my dearest but im sure u can do it . i can see ur strong enough to believe and see whats right for u and whats not . I believe it you can do it . and so will i do th same way too baby ! Be strong and have to courage to face it even how bad it is u have to face th fact its your life u cant get away from this . We will finish this battle in a proper way & i knw & im very sure we will win this battle !!!

6 years Ibu

2009-08-21T17:24:00.003+08:00

Yesterday felt like a lil different . when i returned home from ncc . it was yeah late of course . tired & veryvery tired for sure . I was soo restless & soo i turned in early . I lay at my bed and this thought just suddenly came into my mind .

I miss my late mum . I didnt knw why i missed her but it was all out of a sudden . Tears kept rolling down . My heart was aching and yes i felt soo worst yesterday night . I knw there right there you will see how im tearing apart in life & how im feeling at that time . I miss everything about you . Your cares & love , ur cooking & etc . theres soo much about you too forget . Your th biggest person in my life that have done soo much to be marked in my mind now till forever . Its been 6 years . 6 years youve been gone from this world . How i wish you were here with me to share my pain , sorrows & laughter all togather . You have always been a part of my life and till now i had never forgotten about you . Im thankfull enough to god tt now i have a new stepmom that is really loving and caring just like you mum . Ohh my , my tears are falling now . I cant imagine having losing you that day . That day will be th day that im never gonna forget . I love you soo much & now ive learnt that your gone . Never coming back . Ive come a long way till now 6 years ive grown up tall & big enough . Back then i was just a small kid naughty & childish . Im never gonna let you be disapointed there . Im gonna do every bit to make you proud cause i love you so much Ibu & i miss you soo soo much Ibu . I wont erase you from my mind cause your my everything , everything in my life & heart that can never be replaced .

Your my precious beloved Ibu

by XoOrdinaryGirlox

The sparkle you bring to my life is like no other,
the sparkle only I can see and shows I'm you're daughter.
A short lived you've only lived so far
and to me you're my shining star.

Your angelic eyes to brown,
I only have to look at you
to feel the rush of love,
I wonder if others to, can see.

Sometimes you can be little pickles,
you only have to smile as drool trickles.
The best by far is the 5am gummy smile
as that definitely makes it all worthwhile.

Even you have gone to another world
Just remember every time you turn to me, you see
that I love you from now until eternity
And never forget those beautiful memories togather.

Too much too say & too much to forget

2009-08-18T19:32:00.001+08:00

Days pass soo fast nowadays . Time flies , its almost two months that his been gone . But still , im not gone from this fairytale just yet . How i wish i could get back & get started with all th fact and reality in live . w/o regrets , fears , sorrows , hurts and even th past memories . I dunt wish to get back to th past but when i think back why i really cant . people dont understand . i need time & space . Ooooh my this seems th hardest laa kans . But for sure i will try & even if it tales a longlong way to go im sure have to face it . No more hiding . Face it , Deal with it , Get over it .

Many things have been taking place a few days back . Bestie is feeling hurt so am i . I just pity hym like aloot gtuu . And to her gf yeah i pity her too . They have been togather for soo long and they have come this far . I wanna see them ending up in happy endings but i guessed it fail . & i doo feel disheartened too .

To bestiekuu ; Im always here for you no matter what . dont wury u will always have my support from th back and i will respect every decision u make maaaan ! Stay cool , be happy think positive , dont think too much . No matter how far you are im here just for you . Even if you just soo hard-heartened . hee :D

To everyone ; Im trying to be strong & dont worry about me . now is not th time yet for me to face th reality . just wait and i will change . Thanks to th encouragement and al th tons & piles of advices . All of it maked sense and get through in my mind and im never gonna dissapoint you guys . I need all of you like how you need me . Thanks & i appreaciate it sooo sooo sooo muchhh !!!

Why i cant say go ?

2009-08-14T19:45:00.000+08:00

I thought i could do it . I thought time could stand still and stop where all th good moments were . I thought i could let go . but now why can i say go ? I rememvered few days back , th night was dark & dull . tears fell through my cheeks when i was readin ur old text . I wanted to delete it but why does it seems to be soo hard ? Whats soo good bout ur texts ? Why must i still care to read and keep it ? I just dont knw th reason why .. My life isnt getting better w/o you . But i try my very best to live life with laughter & smile all around . But friends wont knw whats inside me . Friends wont knw th inner me . Nobody knws & will never knw . I try my best to be with my friends & catch up every single thing they are doing . I try my every bit to cheer up & smile and make my day th best . I just hope that this days of hurts and sorrows could just leave me this seconds and minutes of my days . I just can stand it any longer . I try to keep away al my sorrows , hurts , sadness all aside but , there is this moment that everything that i try to put away comes back .

Anis & Me promised not to be in love right now and not to be in any r/s or stuff for now & enjoy life to th fullest . I hope i could to my very best and fulfill this .

Anyways,
HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY TO SHAIKH !! * Your th best guy ever in class eventhough at times u irritates me laa kans . hee :D

Random

2009-08-10T14:00:00.002+08:00

1) Are you single or attached ?
Ans : Single :)

2) Do you have a person you like ?
Ans : Yeapyeap

3)What is the name of your person you in love with ?
Ans : Its meant not to be told

4)If the person you in love and your mother dropped into the sea ,
who will you save?
Ans : Both for suree !

5)Have you hug someone before ?
Ans : Yeapyeap

6)Do you love your parents ?
Ans : Obviously!

7)Will you hug the want you love ?
Ans : Like duhh !

8)Are you willinq to do anythinq for your boyf/girlf ?
Ans : Anything ? Depends .

9)Are you jealous now ?
Ans : Uh ? What for ?

10)Who is the last person who msq you ?
Ans : Sallihin

11)Who is your clique ?
Ans : Not sure

12)Do you want babies in future ?
Ans : Yeahyeah !

13)Do you prefer MacDonald , long john silver or KFC ?
Ans : Everything !

14)Do you sniff glue ?
Ans : Exactly NO !

15)Do you smoke ?
Ans : NO ! never will !

16)If your boyf /girlf play 2 timer behind you , what will you do ?
Ans : Smack his bloddy ass

17)If you rich , what will you do ?
Ans : Shopshopshop ! && Save .

18)If the love wants held your hand , what will you do ?
Ans : *huge smile*

19)If the want you in love , reject you , what will you do ?
Ans : ohh , not sure ??

20)What is your favourite character ?
Ans : favourite character as in ?

21)Friendship or love ?
Ans : Friendship obviously

22)Cookie monster or elmo ?
Ans : Cookie Monster !

23)Do you use laptop or computer ?
Ans : Laptop

24)Do you like lollipop ?
Ans : Yeahyeah !

25)Do you have a diary ?
Ans : My blog is my diary .

26)there an admirer and
wont die heart , what will you do ?
Ans : Uh ? What ? Dont understand !

27)If you quarrel wit your boyf / girlf ,
and ask for a break up , what will you do ?
Ans : Try my best to save our r/s .

28)Are you blur ?
Ans : Yeah ! At certain times uhh .

29)If you can have your hair dye , what colour do you want it to be ?
Ans : Brown & Blone

30)Who is the last person you chatted with ?
Ans : HadyGilerk

31)How many boyf / girlf have you beaten before ?
Ans : Never once !

32)If you boyf / girlf do not love you anymore , what will you do ?
Ans : Respect his decision & leave .

33)What school are you in ?
Ans : Bedok Town Secondary School

34)Tag 10 bestie or friends to do this quiz?
Ans:
1)Rossa
2)Anis
3)Norra
4)Hazirah
5)Adilah
6)Saleha
7)Astri
8)IndahhWoww
9)FeellaBirdy
10)RieraMambolache

im strong & i believe it

2009-08-09T19:17:00.008+08:00

I wanna be happy like how i used too

Ive finally thought through myself , i finally realise that i dont need yoou anymore . i dont need anyone to prove to me that love is everything . I dont need love from you now cause my time was all wasted on you . i knw & i believe that i could do it and now day by day passes lil bits of you have gone apart . im quite impressed by that . I can move on and step further ahead like how you are now . I can be happy and enjoy whats life now like how you aree feeling too . All th tears & hurts i cast aside cause im sure thats not gonna solve everything . I dont need boys . && im sure i dont need you too(insert name) . I have to take my leave cause my life ahead is waiting for me & i wont knw what awaits for me tmorrow and th day after that . Im gonna treasure every bits of it cause i knw thay are meant to be kept . I dont wanna keep you close in my heart cause in my heart your not where you belong . I belong to someone else & so do you . That someone thats for us will come one day & im sure its just somewhere . I will get a better one then u expect & when that day comes i bet th past wont be reminded . I failed one , twice , thrice and manymany times . but for sure this time im not gonna fail . cause its gonna stop here for now . I dont wish to get hurt anymore . It hurts to see im failing everytime i try . but our failure will teach us how to succeed muchmuch more better . Only God knws what im thinking & what im doing everytime . & what i knw 'I dont love you no more' .

Anyways, HAPPY 44TH BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE .

Cause i dont wish to waste more time

2009-08-05T20:48:00.005+08:00

When i knw it has long fallen apart , When i knw it has long gone forever , When i knw its never coming back , When i knw theres no hope for it anymore . Why would i still wait & wait ? Why would i have to make my tears fall every night i think of you . Has it ever occured your mind that i was hurt deep down inside & th cause was YOU ? i dont think so gyeah ? If you had ever knew this . I geuss you wont wanna care a bit of it right ? What was i trying to do ? What was i thinking of all this while ? What was i been waiting for so long but it never came ? It was all you !? I tried to recall back what my english teacher have said to th class abt her mistake in LOVE yesterday & i guess she was soo exactly right . Due to emotions our thinking could be distracted & its hard to think . And im sure whats my reason thats so hard to let go of you was this . I determined myself this lately that i will try my best not to ever think of you & tryna let go cause i knw ur not th one thats right for me & im not th right one for you . We are just fated to meet once & its time now we are going on with our own life . This is th best that i could say to make it clear that im tryna enjoy whats here with me & leave whats not appreciating me .

Monday Blues

2009-08-03T18:23:00.008+08:00

Todaay , was kinda okey laa kan . scholl aspernormal . during SS class , Mr hamdi was absence and half of th class decided to play True or Dare . Ggaga , i was in th game but wasnt attacked . Fenfen was attacked & i dared her to kiss her bf lip to lip and yeah she did it . Sweet huh ?
Tingtong! nothing to say for th rest of th school lesson todaay .

Friends kept encouraging me & kept supporting me from th back but why do i still feel soo low down to earth . i feel that im soo weak with or w/o them . yes its true i need them th most & they need me too . They have help me alot but why couldnt just listen to them and do whats best for me . Im sure they want th best from me but what about me ? Im not doing anything but dwelling on th samesamesame problem each day . i knw dwelling on it wont resolved anything but much more worst . Friends say 'MOVE ON' , 'YOU WILL GET A BETTER ONE THN HYM' but why am i still here ? With th thoughts of you running in & out of my mind . I dont wish to be hypnotised & fiiled up in my mind just because of you . I have tried my best . Really tried . But it will fail every second . It will fade soo easily . Its so hard to forget you . i should have believe in myself and have th courage that i can do it but it seems too little to make it there . This was th biggest mistake i did . & through all your hurts all th sufferings that ive been through all this while . no one knws me th best . People could say they understand me but i knw & im sure they have never understood me . they said it for just th sake of saying it . Boys do come & go but im glad my babygirls & friends do stay close to my heart & mind .

Some part of my life i have to pretend that im smiling happily and showing that im okey cause i dun wish to hurt th others .

Saturday night

2009-08-01T14:17:00.006+08:00

Yesterdays pitcure :D

lots of hurts

2009-08-01T13:16:00.005+08:00

First foremost , you guys would be wondering who tht guy is and why im putting his picha here . Hhaha , His the one tht has help me thru alot all this while & i knew hym for almost 2 years i guess . &&&&
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZAIE !!!!!
May you have an enjoyable birhtday &everlasting fun todaay yeah ! Anyway , i missyou maan !

Lettme tell ya abt yesterday . Yeah went to Jalan Besar Stadium watched geylang united vs gombak united . its super slow th game . but lots of fun i had seriously i guess ? Im sure that he ________(insert name) was there too . i was like , whattheheck ehh ? he stare . i was like superly shocked ! Tears felt like rolling down but friends told me not to but stay strong and show hym that im hapyy . soo i did as i told but my heart felt uneasy . The game came to an end & it was tyme to part . Friends sume ajak gy makan soo i tagg along but didnt say a single word . i felt really quite uneasy seeing hym go away just like that . i hold on to my tears and finally told my friends i cant tagg them along & went back straight home .

To Rizal ; Thanks maan , u comfort me alot . i knw u cared abt me . ur th friend that i need & im sure you will always be there for me when im in need .

To that guy(insert name); im not sure what ur mind was going thru yesterday i guess i dun wish to knw abt it anyway . what i wanna tell you is that i tried to forget you but its kinda hard but i knw time will heal th pain of mine that you have hurt me soo much . Like your song in you blog 'Promise in th dark' . all ur promises were fake & not meant for me .ur promise were all a lie were all in th dark . i guess ur getting better with life now . Thanks to you im suffering . I hope i wont meet anymore guys thats just soo heartless like you . You came to me soo sweet but u left me soo sourwerish full of pain . I guess i knw this is whats meant for me . You will realise sooner or later that im th one that was once true to you before .

With love full of pain & regrets , it was such a sin knwing you whats more letting you go .

Buttsuckers

2009-07-31T16:13:00.005+08:00

More pictures from last tuesday

Yesterday , sumpah th like shyt . i took th part A's and they , i could say they have done their best and improved a lil . Ncc ended badly . lots of things lots & i found out that i was one of th victims that lost some valuables . i lost my money & super damn shocked i was , tears start falling down my cheeks . Thanks to Miss Lee , she gave me some money . Hee :D Butbut ! what was i damn shocked & still mad right now is that , it was actually my freind one of my technical friend took my money and im frustrated dengan budak tuh uhh ! Sumpah ehh kau , banyak2 orang kau nak kena amek aku peh asal ? Musibot ehh . Haiyaa . Stop laa girl . sooner or later u will be caught redhanded ehh . For today gyeah ! went school as usual with my dearest adek . Norra tagg along as hazirah didnt came to sch as she was sick too . waoaaahh piang ehh ! 2 of my friends now are down to sickness . shyt laa ! i miss them and i wish them get well soon fastfast tau *Anis&Hazirah* . School was super bored . i managed to complete my maths assignments & geography . Assembly was super lame . Aniway , im going NDP preview tmrw baybeh ! i got free ticket from my Dearest Norra . Ily babe ! wee~~ kay cukop ehh . now im gonna searched for a suitable shirt for me to wear later to Jalan Besar Stadium , Bedok town students will be packed there yeah ! Cant wait ! Takecre Readers:D

They are ;

2009-07-30T21:38:00.006+08:00

This was tuesdays picha . yeah . went to Stamford House that day we became a makeover model . Cheyywaa ! haha .Theres more picha . go check out my facebook ! Fun dok ! Tmrw maybe going to Jalan Besar stadium watching bola babe ! wee~~~~ .

Thats all done!

To anis ; I miss you babe & Get well soon dino !

What hurts the most .

2009-07-25T12:02:00.006+08:00

BABES

Anis,Amalini,Hazirah,Noranisha,AishaBegum,Amira,Sulastri,Jovita

*I need you all babes th most for now to keep my life going on .*

Im loving school nowadays . Yes studies makes me mabok more and more but ive been trying my best to concentrate & catch up every little bits in every lesson . With all my babes in my class 3a3 . i feel much more livelier . im much more hyper nowadays . im smiling more and having much more good time with all of them . They superb rawk my day in school completely almost everyday .

But ,

In some parts . when im all alone . all th smiles & laughter seems to fade away . how fast could it go . when i try to hold on to my life . staying strong . why must at certain parts i just seems cant to . its not th same to have you here with me close in my heart & now not having you here but still th thoughts of you keep coming back * back again. I dun wish to feel like this . I just want to breakaway from evrything thats troubling me now . All th sorrows , all th pain , all th tears , all th sufferings . i knwo and i believe there is an ending to it . but when could it ever end ? Im sure its never now or soon . Its gonna be later when i cudnt realise that I HAVE FORGOTTEN ABOUT YOU .

And why ?

2009-07-24T09:24:00.003+08:00

Life w/o youu just seems different . im trying my best not to think abt youu . Imiss th old you . where youve been ? Your sweet txts gone down th drain. Im not like how i used to be before . Tryin to change just seems tougher than i thought . Kept thinking those days would come back . But its turn old & dusty . Never coming back . Why ?

Beat it !

2009-07-18T19:40:00.009+08:00

* rotate ur PC'S okey , thankieusss ;D*

Piture will do the talk for todaay . Got a new dress from auntykuu ! Thanks very the much ! Lots of fun i had , Superb Gerek oiik !!! k , bye assfools .

2009-07-12T21:18:00.002+08:00

When his gone , im tryin my best to get hym back . Back then you were soo much diffrent . but when it comes to our meeting , youve change . Why must it be soo drastic . Its killing mew deep deep inside . I guess its best for me to put on a smile and get ready for th worst and goodness in life . it seems ur just hacked care abt me . Now no more loves , or sweet talks tt u used too . Why ? what did i ever do wrong H___ . Now its left unsaid . i have to go out of ur mind & life since its not gonna benefits me . Ur one of a kind and i wont ever stop thinking of you . Life , I have to move on eventhough u dun feel th hurt im feeling . I will cast aside all th hurts and continue whats best for me .

I will wait till my phone appears ur name weather its txt or call . I'll wait .

Deadly Shoot !

2009-07-11T09:54:00.002+08:00

Hey-Hoo !
Humans !

3 words ; I miss youu !!

where youve gone ? am i that bad ? why must this happen dude ? whats wrong with me ?

kaay stop it .

anyway , aku rinduk sama orangorang cyberworld aku . kawankawan aku sory okey . anything just reach me thru my phone yea peepos !

PS; Waited for ur txt & call almost evryday . Im hoping & i knw im gonna regret it .

Boom Boom !

2009-07-10T12:14:00.003+08:00

Heyy Hoo !

now im in school again . sory for not updating . for all my cyberfreind totally sory kaay sume 1 lappy confiscated laa peepos ! Tsktsk !

haish ..
many things have been happening and yea to make it short if ur reading my post seriously u didnt keep ur promises like what uve said to me and im sumpah th hurt . i loveyou but then in a blink of an eye ur gone . thats fats boy . i miss ur txts b ! where u ? i need you . do come back my dear !! Ohh ______ .

okey malas nak blog . takecre sume !

PS; Where you ? i need you boy & now ur gone ;(

Weyy Heyy !

2009-06-30T12:41:00.002+08:00

Heyhey !
yea its been so long tak update and im soo soo sory asskickers ! gaga ! laptop kena confiscated with daddy and im totally soo fcuking sad ! haiyaa ! sory to tell tt im no longer ACTIVE in cyberworld yeah ! *Sigh*
i miss evryone , i miss chatting yeah ! hee :D

Now im in computer lab adee Chemistry . haish.
Im bored !!! Gaga .
okeyokey i will update more if i get th chances yea baybeh !

Daddy i want my lappy back Pretty Please *Wootwoot*

PS; I love that guy :D

Rise & Fall

2009-06-19T14:23:00.003+08:00

Yesterday planned cock up . supposed to go out to sentosa with th sec 4 laa kaans . abey sec 4 tuu sume tak jafi . adoii saket hatii ! then me & lynie decideed to go out . damn bored at home soo yea ! met her at bedok and off we go. we wasnt sure where we wanted to go and thot we went to town lorr. . drop off by train at dhoby ghout and we decided to find a place to eat . and we both craving for KFC . gagaa . jalan straight all th way sampai shaw house situu . we were supposed wanted to go to KFC at far east and we just coudnt get our way there . its almost an hour . we were both sweating and our stomach we both grumbling & i was like damn dehydrated . fuhhh ! tak bolei tahan babe . then finally lynie teringat about hyat hotell and yea made our way there and by a few minutes we both *High Five* agaga . I said to her nie macam amzing race sia ! hoho . we both bought zinger meal and for th first tyme ever our drinks was cleared frst before our food finished . i hope korng tawu what i mean . gaga , it was fun afterall . through th roads we lauhged our heart out macam baru amek laughing gas gituu . hoho . we went to far east walk2 keap then my ex Naim , called . aik ! terperanjat babe ! hoho . then daa tuu . far east was nothing , we went to ngee ann city and went in to 'kinokuniya' kecoh sia kte due . macam orang gilee . hoho . fun babe ! daa penat then i had to go home lorr . took trained home and yea . home sweet home .

that was yesterdays story .

todaay .

Im fcuking daamn eeffffinnggg sunnguhhh BORED ! u knw why ? cause my handphone would be silent w/o his texts . haish ! for 3 days okey . people 3 days tau tak ! his gone to KL and im soo supperrr sad laa kans . *sigh* takpee , baru satu hari abey daa rinduk. karot uhh reeya nie . *wootwoot* nyahaha .hope he fun there and yea takecre okey dude !!

Shah ; Your not in my life anymore . ive made a change im gonna be strong . i knw w/o u im still safe & sound . i think im better off w/o youu , i dun need u & i knw u dun need me anymore . Its time i leave and realise my dreams and do what really benefits me . im not gonna wait for th person i love and thats you that dun even care a single bit abt me . i guess im through with you . ive had enough with all ur fools & tricks . Im not needing u in my life & in my heart . Your never gonna get aplace im my heart . Now i guess this is th last post i hope im psoting abt you . i dun wish to have anything to do with you anymore . thanks for loving me once and hurting me more & more . Im never gonna have a love like this .

PS ; I miss you already ;(

Realised .

2009-06-17T21:08:00.004+08:00

Heys ! ! i hd fun yesterday going swimming with ; Yanaa , Fitri , Yayat , Yaseen , Zai and 4 more guys . haha . gerek uhh babygirls akuu ! woohhoo kecoh babe ! gaga! penat jugak uhh but haha afterall we really had fun and shared lots of laughter togather-gather .

Todaay thot of being a goodgirl but then got a text from baby Ara , she was sick & had to teman her to bedok polyclinic . met her at bedok inter arnd 315 . i was late . hoho :D . went there macam budak bodo laa kteorang daa tak tawu nak buwat apeekan . fuhh ! maluu siot ! gaga ! okey after that we proceeded to meet her ex Affie !Otw there went to buy bubble tea ! Ara belanje mah ! Thanks babe! Fuhh ! at 1st okey laa he but then lamelame alamak ! perangai !! Disgusting dokk ! *Sigh* Then wanted to meet her fren Ahmad but then diyer lambat forget it then . nyahahah ! then we took 225 and headed to mac to have our dinner there . nyahah ! Ara treat me again . Thanks again baybeh ! woohooo ! kecoh sia ! we talktalk and yea shared our probs togather . it was fun hunn ! and daa habes teros separated and i took bused home .

To baby Ara ; Thanks alot baby ! ur great to be with and yea i had fun with youu todaay baby ! iloveyou and meet soon again hunneh!

Hazly's going to kuala lumpur on friday for 3 days ! Omg ! What !! im suree gonna miss hym maaaann ! *Sigh* well noone could acommpany texting me till late night . haiyoo ! takpee . Just takecre dude !

Yes ive realised ! ive totally realised evrything . Right from th start i shouldnt have gotten involved with you i shouldnt have gotten myself to be in love with you . you stole my heart and now its hard to take it back . i thot w/o u i was nothing but now im sumthing . ohh maaann ! thanks for th love you gave me but now i knw w/o you i feel its great . i feel relieved now . i realised that i still have much more wonderfull babes and dudes frens to be with . they care for me much more then u did . iloveyou wholeheartedly but now i regretted evrything . mann , evrything u know that . i finnally learned .

Cintaku padamu terlalu dalam hingga tidaak satu pun yang mengetahuinya.
Aku ingin kau tahu aku maseh mengharapkan dirimu kembali kepada ku .
Tetapi ini semua hanya mimpi di siang hariku .
Aku tidak dapat melupakan mu.
Ku bersedih kerana mu , tiada cahaya kegembiraan pabila kau pergi .
Kini kau sudaa dapat apa yang kau inginkan & kau amat bahagia sama si Dia.
Biar ku undurkan diri daa cuba melupakan dirimu.
Ku tidak mahu dipermainkan lagi , ku tidak mahu dipermainkan lagi.
Kau hanya anggap diriku bagai boneka.
Aku tahu cintamu pada ku sudah lama kau hapuskan.
Kini sudah masanya aku pun harus menghapuskan cintaku padamu.
Sia-sia sahaja selama ini ku menuggu kepulangan mu .
Kini kau pergi dan takkan kembali.
Cintamu bukan untuk diriku . Cintamu adalah untuk si Dia.
Cuma Tuhan shaja yang tahu isi hati ku dan betapa peritnya hatiku merasakan kesedihan ini.
Selamat tinggal kekasih. Moga kau bahagai dengan si Dia.

*sorry its in malay yea . hope you all understand this . takecre all !*

This is what i get .

2009-06-15T21:53:00.002+08:00

Now again im uploding this picture of hym . Haish . its been more then a month ive been waiting for hym and now just todaay when i got back home i saw tt he was attch ? Omg ! terperanjat siaaaa! His lucky gerl named Sharmiela . Ohh to that ur lucky and do take care of hym . last long okey korang . im sad . totally heartbroken . i thot i still got hope but it ended up like this . ive been waitng & waitng for hym to be back in my life but now i knew he wansnt meant ofr me at all . all i know was that ive given too much , too much false hope towrds hym and now ive been acted as a fooled waiting for a guy like hym . i tried evrything and ive wasted my tyme & my life just for youu SHAHERAN ! and you knw what !! this is what i get in return ?! Fcuk !! its all my mistake . people do make mistake and ive been mistaken to fall in love with you and im now stuck with youu . i knw its all over but now i guess im gonna say its officially over . I wanted the old u back . cause the old u was the one tt loved me and gave me those promises . but now i realise . those promises werent true . they were just EMPTY PROMISES . I hate it .

Arjun ; sorry i rejected your love ., i just cant trust boys now . ive been getting hurt tyme and again . now isnt the tyme for me to fall in love back . im not ready to carry another hurt on my back one hurt is enough . i cant handle this burden anymore . im sory to hurt youu but i didnt meant it .

Todaay was funn . Nak pegy swimming but at last almost all th west side punye tutop baek sia . naseb cume me , Fitri , Yanna , Yayat , Zai , Yaseen . Gerek uhh kau Yaseen ! gaga !! Zai , Zai ! Gembeng ehh kau ! Hohoho . kesyan dorang . but then maybe goin trmw laa swimming ehh . weeehoo ! im gonna put all my tears and sorrows behind and put a big big smile on my face and laugh out loud till i drop ! weeeheeee ~!!! Its tyme i have to enjoy life now since his now gotten th girl of his choice ! yea ! ..

Im totally hurt ........

You left me in th storm and let me bear all the pain .

Family

2009-06-14T20:31:00.003+08:00

Hello once again its time .
time for what ?
to blogg laa dengs ! gaga ! kaay .

today was soo called fun jugak laa ehh . went uh with daddy , mummy & lilbro kan . got jemputan then went went to eat ice kacang at tamp mart there . okey taknak elaborate lagy malas uhh babe . geesh !

froM pagy sampai petang tadii i waited for hazly to txt me . tuggu oehh tunggu asal laa he never txt , pikir apee laa kan . atlast i txted hym first . wondering whaat happen padahal-padahal he was playing soccer with his dad . . baek perr ? gagag !
kaay stop it .

His back todayy from camp . now his on9 but i dun wanna chat with hym cause im not suree why . I miss hym lyke what ehh ?!! ive been asking saleha whens his coming back and now his back taknak chat pulaak . haish . hoow i wish u knew how i miss u now ! kaay . i hope u realise it .

FellaBirdy just told me tadii got KIS punye outing on th 19th at punggol . hmm . i think im going i think im not . taklei conferm uhh baby ! . i will text u babes ehh if gy ke tak ?

Okey baek tmrw reeya fully booked sei ! morning2 lagyy daa kena meet Horeah pat tamp inter got to go HHQ NCC nak amek NO 1 uniform for NCC day . leceeh sia . takpee for ncc bolei . hehs . then after taking uniform kena laa rushrush back home cause nak meet fitri,yana,aisha and laen2 nak pii swimming pat jurong babe !! gaga ! i hope its fun . then after that kena meet diana shes asking me out . yea at last dapat meet her !! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !!! kaaykkaay cukop !

besok reeya blog lagyk ehh . byebye ! tgh busy nie !

takecre ass!

PS; I want the old you back .

New !

2009-06-12T22:39:00.003+08:00

Kayy hello Humanizers baybie !! ohh great ! today was soo fun and enjoyable laa korang tawu tak ? ahah !

Home > Bedok Inter > Bedok Cc > Bedok Inter *took yana**met ijal & gangs* > Bedok inter*send aisha off* > Esplanade > Boon Keng > Back Home .

Thats was such a fun day !! sumpaah sunguuh banyak laughlaugh ! fuhhh ! nak out lagy biler babes ? gagaghh ! Actually ur plan was suppose to print our homeworks and get it done togather but it ended up to this . ahahha !! tak apee .

Supposed to meet Zacky todaay but fuhh ! tunggu diyer punye text macam tunggu duet nak jatoh from th sky ! ahha ! takpee aku pon tak heran uhh !

Fiz is going JB tomorrow & will only be back on next saturday . okey have fun ehh and takecre ! haha :D

Maybe meeting Hazly tmrw & im not suree till now . haha . kaaykaay . whatever it is *BLANK*

As you can see ive change my blogskin soo yea . haha . boring uhh dgn yang lame punye . doo tag tag akuu laa yer ?

kaay taktau nak cakap apee lagy .

byebye sume !

*sickness is gone & have flown to Hazly* | Wish hym a fast recovery |

Duumdiiidummdiiduum ! Sick ass !

2009-06-10T21:57:00.003+08:00

Humans ! Im back to th updates hoo ! Im currently superr sick . im feeling quite weak but some people is just making a hard tyme for me example my adek . haish . sumpah atttitude diyerr . wooh ! hmms . okey . ive bben sick for almost 3 days and it feels soo soo terrible oii ! korang tak tawuu ehh at night i find it soo irritated and difficult to sleep due to my runny nose nie ! takpee i can still bear th pain . i took my medicine just now after eating lunch due to my promise to tt person laa kan . aha . but still my cough seems to be much bad . haish . my voice sounds like a rockstar babe ! but i hate it . fuuhh ! bilerr laa nak baek ehh . ehh this dieases can u just go away . fuuhhyoo ! kalau laa i can just say tt and my sickness is gone mesty hapy gilers kan ? hohohho . kaay kaay . stop . nanti orang pikir reeya nie giler pulak biler saket .gaga ! err . okay ! to tell the truth aku sumpah nyee hapyy !! yeayea ! i got 50 bucks from mummy yesterday ! andand im not sure what to do with it but what i knw im going to shop shop shop ! andand !i have to spent it wisely laa kans .. aiyoo ! 50 bucks for me macam tak cukop uhh . haish . takpee . hehs .

I miss youu !! its been soo long ive not seen you on9 and im not sure why . haish . i bet your busy with your n level thingy and i just wish u your best okey . haish . i totally miss u like alot ehh . u will never know whats in my kind but even if you know i bet u dun even caree . haish kaay stop it . !

Im superr-Bored tau kawankawan ! takdee orang nak chat nan aku . tsktsk ! sad sia akuu ! naseb aku tgh txting nie ehh if not adoii mendak lagyy laa aku . err . hazly asking me out and im not sure to go or not cause im sick bebeh ! ahah . kaay cepatcepat laa sembuh ehh reeya nie ! menyusahkan orang jee tawu ! haha kayy laa cukop besokbesok bolei blog yee . hee ;

takecre semue !

dummdddiiidummdiiduumm !

2009-06-07T22:51:00.002+08:00

Hello ! Kay-kay humans ! i know u miss me huh ? *WootWoot*
Hhaha ! its been a few days ive not been blogging . and now its tyme to blog . i didnt wanna blog but seems like miss blogging soo yea !

Few days ive been gone mising from my bloggie world cause ive been busy for almost 4 days from thursday till today i had to work . omg ! standing almost th whole day pespiring mostly of th tyme . haish . its kinda tired but yea its soo soo worth it after all . but *sigh* Wort it for th past 3 days uhh but for today ! maaakk aiii !! Kakii kuu cramp siaw ! adee laa bisul macam benjul gituu at my tapak kakii ! Hiakduusshhh ! there goes crashed all my plans . Sungguh menyakitkan hatii & jantungkuu sei ! lots of plan was in my mind but since my feet is in this condition i have to just rot at home & wait for it to recover bbebeh ! Aduuuiihaii ! Menyampah sei ! takpee , when i get well soon ! i will be going to start back all my plan !!

Bestiekuuuu Paul !!!!!!! its great to have a bestie like hym . be jeles cause it seems we dont act like besties but its like more than tt , haha . merapek laa akuu ! nyahaahhass !
his great to be with , kecoh and sungguh th kelakar . kalau dengar he talk melayu cute sia ! sebiji like orang melayu . hehs . how lucky her gf is to get hym yea ? hoho . but she does not seems to take cre of her tt well . adoii ! hurt my bestie i smack ur ass with neddle ehh !gagaag ! okeyokey , meetiing hym soon bebeh ! butbut ! wait till kakii kuu daa baek ehh sayaaaangg oii !!

Babygirlskuu !!!!!!!!!! its been almost a month ive not been metting them and it hurts my heart soo badbadly doinkx ! haahahha , fake ass ! i wanna meet them hug them ! haish ! ilovethem to th fucking coree laa yee ?!!! Setuju tak korangkorang sume ?!! hahass ! kaykay once again i'll be meeting u babes soon butbut tunnguu laa kakii kuu nie ! problem uhh !

Now im damn fcuking th bored laa kans . takdee apape nak buwat . just finish txting with hafiz and now still txting with larry . daa topup mah takpee ! hehs . Hazly suro txt bilee daa topup nie i txted hym from just now sampai sekarang tak reply2 . adoii aper nie ?! takpee laa doinkx ! maybe he have his reasons ehh oiik ..

kaykay super-crazy-ass laa akuu nie giler laa !! macam tak betol ehh . takpee not evrytime kan ?

byebye laa faithful readers .

andand anyway if once read do tagg me ehh ! takmuh spamspam tau pantat !

doodooooo ;D

2009-06-03T15:44:00.002+08:00

People do change huh ? haish ,.sometimes we dun even recognised or knw th old us . people change sometimes due to th one they love or maybe just by nature . its hard gettign back to where we started . how i wish i could get back to when we first knew each other. how perfect my life would ever be . .

Larry & Saleha have made & impact in my life . they seems to cheer me up and make me smile more often than before . lifee seems better than yesterday & how i wish u could enjoy this hapy moments with me togatheer . i share my sorrows & my happiness with them . eventhot they seems to be 2 years younger thm me , they do lend their listening ears . they do share their thots & try their best to help me & advice , they do understand my condition and im gratful to them . Their existance seems to brighten my life tts being darken by his love tt he have left just like tt .

We have to move on with lyfe . nothing get th better of it if we just stays on just how we are . im in such a mess now like what 'Zaie'said to me yesterday . 'someone will help u out of this mess ur in soo just be strong' . i listen to what 'Zaie' says & advice to me as his th also th one tt have been helping whenever im troubled . he continues to be there for me even how tough it may be . Good people do exist & now i do believe it . but as for moving on i dun think its the time now . but im slowy getting rid bits & pieces of th pain tts in my heart . soon i will be relieved & nothing can ever get in my way especially being in love . now nots th time for tt . what i have to do is bucking up in my studies & being togather with my hapy family & friends !

This sunday got kendarat !! ive been waiting for this yeayea ! got to meet my babes at th piture above !! woohhoooooo !!!!!!!!!!!!!! have fun babe !! haah ;) and i will be getting money-money ehh ! bolei topup ! bolei shopping !!! woohoo !! enjoy babe ! but still have to kkep laa tkkan nak belanjee sume ! adoii !! Reeyaa nie belum dapat daa kanchiong-spider pulakk ehh ! hohoho . okey, i gotta go change nak pi jogging with shahirah laa oii ! takecre folks !!

Daadaa ass :D

Time will heal the pain .

whats happening ?

2009-06-01T18:18:00.003+08:00

Monday is such a bore . and soo its gonna be tommorow and next day after that , i hope life wont be this bore , i feel like im rotting at home doing nothing but just staring infornt of this laptop screen evry single day . holidays are here ! but im not the least hapy due to not going out & no having any plans yet soo far . but i hope im gonna enoy this holiday to th fullest and a fruitfull holiday too !! ive not touch a piece of my homework yet cause im quite lazy for now . maybe later on . and ohh ive forgotten , ive been helping saleha doing her blog as shes not sure enuf to do just tt . & it seems great & enjoyabale ! when i see her hapy im hapy too . yea and to saleha if theres anything im gonna say it again if need help do approach me . im here for you . ohh yea ! i got to chat with larry tday .his kinda good boy . saleha & shah's friend . and ohh yea . i know hym quite a lil bit and larry if u do have any problems im here for u to seek help or anything okey . dun be afraid my dear friend .

Hiakdusshh !! Its been sometime ive not been chatting with tt someone . u dun nid to knw who tt someone is cause u will never know . only i & god knows it . hmm . i kindda miss hym a lil . i think his busy preparing with his exams thot . yea . he told me tt he is . soo yea . i hope i could chat with hym soon and also going out with hym . he wants too soo lets wait for tt day to come . but kan to tt someone ; wait till i got money ehh . hohoho , thn u can go follow me go shopping ehh . haha . i doubt he would run away when he heres shopping ., hahaaa .

Time do goes by very fast dun'cha think soo ? i feel kindda down but at th same time i feel a lil bit useless . my heart keeps sayin ' why dun u just let go of hym , his not loving u anymore & its not worth it' should i foolow whas my hearts saying or what ? im really2 clueless now . im not sure whats my next step in life . whats more to come in my life im not sure yet ? only 'GOD' determines what happens tomorrow .

what im hoping is a better tommorow than today .

Spammer Buttooo !

2009-05-30T16:00:00.004+08:00

To Spammer ; Ehh kau kenape sial nak carik pasal nan aku .. semalam kau spam aku pakai name shah puppet abey skrg kau pakai name aku ! apee maksod kau nie sekarang . kalau nak crik pasal depan2 laa sial takmuh nak spam2 nak buwat cite aku pernah isap konek shaikh kelas aku sendiri ? sesaper budak bodo jek uhh yang percaye kater2 kau ehh ! whats th problem with you sia ! padahal2 kau yang pernah isap konek sia ! sumpah aku tak puas hati nan kau & skrg darah aku tengah menyirap sungguh ! kalau kau berani spam kau sinie mari uhh datang depan aku cakap depan2 . kenape sampai nak susah2kan diri kau spam2 pat blog aku .. taik kau pat blog aku pikir apee aku nak pi jilat per sial ! butohh laa sama kau !!

Confused mode !!??

2009-05-30T14:06:00.004+08:00

Hello Humans !

To the Spammer ; If u really do have been keeping a grudge on me do let it all out wit your OWN NAME !A COWARD would be the one using someonelse name tt i knw . If u really want us to fight and to have misunderstanding between each other , yess we are now soo hapy ? but wats th point & wats ur motive spamming me ? do u get anything in return other than satisfaction ? NOTHING ?!! i think u have soo little care and tts why u come to my blog searching for love & care soo tt i could entertain u isit ? KURANG KASIH SAYANG laa kans . i pity u laa . but if u wanna find trouble with me i have no fear with u & i knw im innoncence . You will get back all ur sins sooner all later & i dun see th point of talking much about u cause ur exist does not matter to me & if u still insist on spamming me more&more enjoy okey weather is a man or woman ur craps wont hurt me cause I DONT GIVE A DAMN TO YOU ASS !!

Okey-okey i just got back from school , had meet-the-parents session just now & daddy was late . supposed to be at 10am atlast samapi pukol 1pm . waa waa waa !! hahhaayai ! okey resukts was damn fcuking bad , passed only two subjects tt was english & malay . (both th easiest) *huahua* addoii , my humanities 8 marks away to pass & my f&n 6 marks away to pass . waa piang ehh ! geram siol ! daddy got nag to me just now & he ketok my kepale with lil bro report book . alamak ! nasib takd orang nmpk f not maluu akuu ! hoho ! but tak saket laa ehh ! but its th fact & memang patot pon daddy buwat gituu pasal i saketkan hati diyer & never make hym proud soo serves you right reeya !!! *hahaahha* ive got lots &lots of homework to do & i guuess no time for lazying arnd oready i gotta stop my attitude and start afresh . ive gotta buck up and strt working hard preparingfor semester two ! ive gootaa do my very best and make sure i pass and make daddy & mummy proud ! yeaa reeya youu can do it !! ahah *:)* i will update my results when im not lazy ehh . *huahuahuahua* .

TAATAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA :)

Im in a confused mode right now ! I just hope it wasnt u . I hope u arent lying to me .

Isi it tyme ?

2009-05-29T09:07:00.003+08:00

Ohh My ! Today is th last day of school !
I guest im gonna miss school mann !! adoii ! but i think im prefer holidays tak payaa bangun siang2 kan kan kan ?? hahahah :)

okey yesterday sumpaah merapek and sway sungguh ! ncc budak part A make me irritated . and to tt chinoneh boi kan ! if u wanna come and spaar with me come laa ehh ! im not afraid laa ! u dun have cock isit samapi nak gadoh nan pompan ! name tak naek laa boii !! budo peh cine maaklakk ! prangai mcm sial ! maner peh big fcuk tah kau ! step besar siol !! Menyampah Sungguh Akuu !!

Just got to knw from one of his fren . her named cant be told . She said tt he will be getting into a r/s soon . ehh Gyeah ! Im fcuking shocked now ! im speechless ! tears like getting to roll down my cheeks but still im holding it on . im shwoing tt im strong . i dun wanna people arnd me to suffer . i dun wanna them to knw . it hurts when u see th one u love , love somebody else . it totally hurts . my heart seeems to shatter more and more . im not sure if theres still love tt can i give to anyone and to move on with othr guys . its hard and im suree its gonna take a long long tyme . he dont seems to understand . and he just wont appreciaite it . he wont realise my love for hym is tt deep . when can this ever be over ? must i ever strt a new chapter of life ? yesss life continues with my lovedones but w/o u is slightly different . they ray for love doesnt shines on my side . it seems dull here . u gave me too much hope . too much false hope . now i knw this love werent meant . we arent meant for each othr .

This isnt th way i shud let go . its hurting me more thn ever ! but my love for u will never cease .

2009-05-28T08:11:00.002+08:00

Hey Humans !

Its been awhile ive not been blogging , school's making me busy and ive not been being myself recently as im feeling weak and sickly lately . haish ! wadduh !!

Lots and lots of things have been bappening lately . Good Moment would be cherished bad moments for now nothing happen soo yea would like to stay far far for it . hahaa !

Okey now im in school doing some stupid ECG survey . watever laa sunnguh merapek .Results ; (Social)

Okeyokey , im missing hym soo much . didnt get to on9 and i hope to get to mit hym soon cause i really wanna knw want he wants to say . haish .. yea . i hope he knws wats on my mind right now . im needing u . really2 need you ..

okey laa im *blank now *

takecre thn Humanizerx !

Im tryna bee strong ; i love you man ! Baby come back !!

If only ?

2009-05-24T19:34:00.002+08:00

HEllo - Looe Humans !

i wanna make this clear and i dun wanna say it arnd the bush . Today . 24th may . its suppossed to be th day . it shud have been our 1mth togather if we didnt separated . tears fell to my cheek when it strike 0000 yesterday night . i didnt realise tt tyme goes by soo fast . i didnt wanted this to happen and i never imagine this would ever happen . i tried and recall back th tymes how did i ever first knew you ? th Shaheran tt i knew wasnt th one tt i knew now . i thot u were th one for me and i thot ur gonna be my last ever love . but it dosent seems true . U were th one tt pick me up when i was troubled at tt point of time and u were th one tt cud complete my life and brighten up th day . eventhot it was a while . i cherish every minute of it . i wanted it to last but it didnt happen . i wannted to hold on to u tight and never gonna let go cause i knw this is true love tt ever exist now . but when u told me tt , my dreams and hopes shattered into bits tiny pieces and my heart when all out for u and ive told myslef i will never gonna give u up just like tt . i will wait and with all my patience till now . im still waiting for th day to come . ive suffered alot cause of u but i never thot of blaming u . NEVER did i ever wanted to do it . what i knw im gonna wait just for you .

Puppet ; im not suree yet still till now u tagged me again at my blog and im sure ive been fooled during th 1st tyme tt u tagged me . u said tt it wasnt u at th previous message and im totally devastated ! but now when u tagged me again i hope tt its suree its u Shaheran . th guy tt i knew & th guy tt ive been loving and been waiting for . i knw ur heartbroken right now and im heartbroken too since th day u left me . but still im putting a strong front to show th world tt im still strong but deep inside im totally heartbroken . nothing could ever express my love for u and i knw u wont realise how deep this love tt im carrying for u . i knw ur having problems and u told me tt i cant help u and noone cud ever help u but i will wait as long as its within me . i will bear with it, i will bear th pain .

I will be here for u whenever and wherever u want me too . ILoveYou !

Maybe ?

2009-05-20T21:03:00.004+08:00

Humanz ! Hello !

Im not sure what im gonna say . reeya suspect kuat jek laa ehh he broke up with me b' cause MAYBE nak kan pmpan laen laa kans . Theres a Big MAYBE there soo im not too sure but i hope its not . haish . if its true laa kans i really2 cant do anything anyway but just to wish u both last long in relationship korangkorang laa ehh boy & gerl . But i pray pray hard its soo not true !

Schools have been a quite sort of disaster to me laaa ehh .. kacau - bilau dok ! kiwaaakkkk !! prangai budak-budak skolaa reeya tak disangke kan oii ! especially sec 4 & 3 boys .. Adoii ! menyakit kan hati sekali ! mcam nak kasi pump jek their face .. isshh isshhh osshhh !! haha .. prangai dorg sebiji macam animal .. kecho sia .. taklei handle but understandable laa kann .. takpee reeya daa biase nan korang-korang ehh .. Whats out of control most is when boys - boys and jantan-jantan tuu sume strt to busterding me . takde otak ehh korang-korang uhh ?!! gy laa korek-korek dalam-dalam , deep-deep ehh otak korang kasi brainwash pon baek uhh . ! pikir laa betol2 sebelom nak buwat apape laa ehh joy !! soo if u cant commit just dont strt to build a relationship . its useless and somehow sooner or later u will get to learn tt u regret it . * ADER PEGY ADER BALEK * soo Beware laa kans . ive gotten mine and soo soooooonnnn u will get it laa . i know ive hurt soo much .. especially in love .. jantan-jantan sekarang .. Adoiii !! SUNGGUH TAK BOLEI DIPERCAYAI !!

Once my ex told me this ; "Cinta & suke is two different things . If u like anytime u can like & anytime u can dont like . Theres a limit but Love is loving tt someone seriously & deeply till making sacrifices for them & treasuring thm . ''

* Letting you go & hating you isnt easy . Im not ready to let it go . I still wanna be near you . But i know i cundt get it all back . *

Never gonna accept th fact ; Its gone

2009-05-17T12:16:00.004+08:00

I knew u would want me to love you anymore . i knew u wud want me out of ur life . i knew u want me to clear ur name from my mine , i knew u wudnt want to have anything to do with me . i knew it even if u didnt speak out . u once said tt ur useless and u asked me to leave u . but did u ever thing why i didnt even wanna leave u ? its all because i truely know tt ur not useless after all . i understood u , i trust u th most . My friends kept talking bad abt you but did i ever cared what they said ? did i ever cast you aside ? NEVER ! its been 11 days from th day of our separation but why do tis feeliings keep running into my mind .? why do i still care and worry abt u while ur out there having a big lot of tyme having fun ? i wundt wanna make myself smile cause every smile i put on there wont be a reason and im just faking it . now i really feel its meaninglesss to life another day w/o knowing what wud happen and what wud be coming up next . im just too scared to face th truth tt ur gone . gone .. gone FOREVER ! Ohh Myy Goosh ! i cudnt face th reality tt now im all alone facing tis world , th challenges arnd me all th obstacle tts gonna strike me . im really in a dilemma , . Help me ! cud u just help me out from all this ? i knw u wont cause u knw it wont be worthwhile rite ?
Why must this ever happen firstly ? what on earth did i ever done wrong to u ? why must i keep continuasly keep hurting my onwself . when can i ever have th greatest big wide smile on my face for th best aweesomee reason tt i wanted . Am i just too soft-hearted tt many guys wud just like to come near me just to break my heart ? Ohh puhleasee ! dun try breaking it . my hearts fragile . once broken its hard to make it heal back . but everytme i tried puting back th pieces and getting back to normal . Ohh my its such a disaster ! but i knw i will never gonna put back th pieces back cause no one can ever replace u in my heart . theres only just for you .

I hope tt u will realise tis . With all my hopes ; Im waiting & never gonna give it up ......

2009-05-16T17:46:00.003+08:00

First and foremost Happy Birthday to ' Fataniah Adawiyah' And to Abg Atul not in th picture sory ye ! Hehs ! may u both hapyhapy always and iloovee u both cuzzy !!

To Puppet ; Youu tagged me at my blog and now im making wild imaginations . im not suree is it u 'shaheran' tt really2 tagged me & say those things to me or isit just anyone a passerby just wanna tagged and make me fall into their tricks .butbut ! i hope it is really u 'shaheran'tt tagged my blog here . if it is really you i hope whatever u say u really2 meant in .everything tt i say to u is true . mark my words . its safely kept with me .evrytme i wish you knew tt i kept thinking abt u every mins of my life . or isit wud u think tt im just too crazy over you keep on talking abt you every post i make . and sory im not crazy . im here talking abt u cause i want u to knw im always here for u even u dont nid me anymore . i knw ur leading a hapy life on ur own now but whereas me here leading a mysterious life miserable . im feeling down almost evryday . w/o anyone noticing but i have to live on cause for u and th othrss tt i love .to make evything normal and going back to whom i usualy used to be is soo eeefffiinnngg hard . ! im trying evryday but i fail to do it . no one can change me only YOU !

To my baybies & friends ; To whom and everyone tt have timelessly told me & advising me to just forget it and let go and strt anew . im sory to break my promises towards you all . i cant do it for now . im too broken hearted down here . i know all you guys cared for me and all of u have been there thru my ups and downs . i thank all of u for tt and i own u guys alot alot much . i appreciate it but rest assured im always there for youu guys and im gonna put a strong front whenver im with you guys . im not gonna show how much sadness & pain im having . im gonna keep it close to me not gonna let it out . and agtain thanks thanks alot . im sure i will be alright sooner or later maybee not now .

Action speaks louder thn words . I hope youu meant it .

2009-05-14T22:54:00.002+08:00

Its 2300 now . its quite late .. everyones at bed now but here i am stuck with blogging & playing games . missing blogging soo much .. and its true okey ..miss tt guy too . Puppet : i need you & really2 need you forever in my life . i know its over , its been a week we've been separated . th words i've said in my previous entry were all rubbish . i cant take it anymore . this feeling of myne just cant bear to let go . i know people have to let go whats past & we cant go back to wats done but why tis heart ogf myne is soo heart & unbearable to leave you . till now accepting th fact tt its over between us is soo not really getting into my mynd . i wish you knew tis heart of myne is breaking deeply and missind ur love tt have long fadded . what i always thot was for you to come back & take my hand back and let me close by ur side lying at ur shoulder .if all this were on ur mynd rite now im glad and im delighted . but unfortunately i know tis will never gonna happen . im always th unlucky onee . i always get hurt . i always fail in love & relationship . am i a slut tt is being curse ? sometimes i do think weird abt myself . im soo imperfect . i know nobodys perfect in this world but why must i always get to th unlucky ones . what have i done wrong all tis while . its too late to rgreat or to make a fuss abt evrything . i just cant take it anymore . its maing myself worst . this have been th worst journey in life ive have since this year . i thot i cud make this year a better one but it turn to be bad to worst . i wanted to spent my life with you . ive promised myself to do it . u didnt know abt my promises tt ive made cause i didnt let it out for you to know cause im scared tt u will think tt im just putting false hopes . but it was rite . every promise ive made before being togather with you didnt stay long . it disappeared out of a sudden and into pieces my heart was breaking & tearing . from th day we separated till now ive kept calling ur phone to check on you cause i need youu .. ohh im still hoping .

My Promises were burst out w/o you knowing it .

2009-05-13T20:09:00.002+08:00

Humanssssxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx !!!

Im back people !!! hahah !! I miss blogging and the people2 here .. at last im here to blog . iknow u all miss me kan ? haha . mepekx ! its been quite sometyme ive not been blogging .. lots of things have been happening recenlty ..lots and lots.. never to forget and not gonna forget ..got quite some hapy tymes and lots of suffering tymes .. ive did lots and lots and lots of thinking all this while . i think its best to move on . no matter how hurt i could be i cudnt just go back to th past .i think its better to look at th future ! i know many things await me in th future soo why not grab it . im useless . im broken hearted . im restless . i cant believe in myself .i can get up from th big fall tt he have pshed me far far away . he have pushed me aside . his hever coming back . and soo ! Tadaaaa ! im also not gonna go back cos i know tt its gonna make things worst .its gonna make myself even much more worst . ending up i will suffer th most . thinggs wasnt suppossed to be . we arent meant for it othr . so be it ! this is just puppy love . and i was stooppiidd to just believe in this kind of puppy love .its a test from god tt i have to take it and bear with it . im not gonna give up my life here just for this stupidiest thing ever . its a small matter but my heart cuts even bigger . i know tyme will heal the pain and sooner or later we will all change and move on with our life w/o doubts or thinking back abt the past . its time for me to let go .i know its hard but i have to . u've letten me go .u've forgotten abt me , abt everything and i know theres no more love tt exist in uy heart for me . i dun exist in ur life anymre rite ? im not gonna waste tyme just waiting & waiting for th things tt is not gonna come . its not tt i've surrender & lost th race . it was you whom have lost & surrender our love 1st . im not gonna feel guilty anymore .i feel hurt , shocked , disheartened alot of things in my heart and running into my mind . i know its th end of us. i realised and goodbye tahnks for evrything . loving you was th best dream ive had and separating with you was th worst nightmare i've gotten ..

More updates soon aites :)

2009-05-06T17:07:00.004+08:00

★Puppet★ says:
i nk bilang benda...
harap2 u phm
Hie - Reeya says:
aper ?
★Puppet★ says:
mak i dapat tangkap yang i ngn u matai
kita terpaksa putus kalao tk dia nk cari u jugak and meet ur parents
Hie - Reeya says:
huh ? thn ?
★Puppet★ says:
i tknk...
but bby.....can u wait for me?
Hie - Reeya says:
u i tknk break !!!
★Puppet★ says:
i mean kita brek skrng aja...lepas i setel all my prob i will take u back....
i pun...but i must just for my mom stake...
Hie - Reeya says:
i tknak !!! i sayaang kan uu !!
★Puppet★ says:
susah lah b...
pls understand...just wait for me thats all i ask.
if can go and find another 1...
Hie - Reeya says:
taknakk !!! i nak u !!!
★Puppet★ says:
pls2...i have to let u go....
sorry
Hie - Reeya says:
thn sampai biler2 kite daa tkde apape lagy ??
★Puppet★ says:
yup...
i have my mom ask...
hope u understand...
sorry reyya
Hie - Reeya says:
okey . im really hurting now . but still i tetap akan tunggu u . i betol2 sayang kan u . ! i hope u come back .
★Puppet★ says:
okay i understand...for now dont sms my phone as my mum is holdiong...
maybe im gona get tagging soon.
Hie - Reeya says:
omg !! please dun get into trouble . i loveyouu .
atleast please call me !!
★Puppet★ says:
iokay gtg bye
Hie - Reeya says:
byebye ! ily !!!!!!

*i feel useless now .i cant stop crying . no matter what im gonna wait for youu SHAHERAN ! i love u forever !! my love for you will never end . i will wait even how long it takes , . *

iLOVEYOUUSHAHERAN!!

*GONNA BE INACTIVE FOR LONGLONGLONG TIME BYEBYE*

2009-05-05T21:00:00.002+08:00

Humans ! Officially to announce im 15 years old oready ehh .. daa tue laa si akuu nie ehh ! haha karot jek ! yesterday my sister bought th whole family KFC, Pizza Hut and Prima Deli cake to celebrate my birthday in advance . aku niee mcm babi siol !! mkn iss banyak laa ! haha , tapi th truth im not piggy ehh ! hehs .
went to sch mcm biase jek ..it was raining and i was damn pespiring sia !! i also tktawuu asal . haah sot uhh aku ! thn masok class jek my kawankawan pompan sume jerit hapy birthday to me ! iss ..haha thns alot my kawankawan saayyangg ehh !! thn blablabla i felt sleepy today i dunnoe why.. thn slept for some lessons ..thn teacher asked me to wake up but i refused thn aisha begum baek hati pekik to hym yang today my birthday laa alamak ! haha cute uhh kau aisha !! aisha begum gave me a kiss laa !!alahai !! sayyanng kauu !! gedebakgedebuk daa habes skolaa . hazirah pgl reeya pkir laa dorg nak bash kan.. dorg asyik ckp pasal nak bash reeya jek . haha . but thn turn out diyer nak bagy present ! haha swit jugak ehh kau !! sayaang kau !!
Went home straight thn tukar baju sume thn met feella , rossa and riera . haha . pkir laa nak aper nak lepak jek kan..padahalpadahal..kene bash sia dgn dorg !!aku daa agak daa..frm feella punya expressi daa tawu sia !! empatempat kene tepong sia !but i got bash paling terok !haish kesyan reeya ehh . haha fun , kecho and gerek uhh lepak nan dorg !! it was awessoommmeeee baybie !! aku saaaaayyyyaaannnnnggg baybiebaybie aku sume ehh !!
gedebakgedebuk daa lepak2 laugh2 sume daa pukol 7 . sume belahh thn i nak balek teros iss punya laa maluu !! nak balek dgn baju full of tepong sia !! terpakse kan soo yea walkcepatcepat ! nmpk Yanyan and th gang but thn i elak dary dorg nmpk ..malu sioll !! haha.. atlast im here now ! daa mandi tawuk ! hehs . freshly and happy yeayea !!

Thanks to all my families , baybies , gerlfrens , boyfrens and all of u guys there for th wishes ehh ! thanks for th bashhing and th present too ehh ! saaaaaayyyyaaannng u guys trucktruckloadings punya !! i appreciate it and yeay ! thanks alot again ! i will remember tis day and not gonna forget u guys !! mwahh !!

Reeya syg korg semue tawukk !
*050594*

2009-05-04T21:07:00.003+08:00

Humans !! yeayea ! Hello semua !!
hapy laa today !

went sch aspernormal laa kan ..
nothing much happen at sch .. after sch went to airport as planned . went with Lynie , Nora and Anis jek . tapi gerek uhh !! 4 org mcm 4 ratus org .. haha fake ahjek .. tapi sumpah gerek and kecho babe !!
we all sume lapar thn anis complain jek all th way pasal lapar gile .. haah . thn we sesat sia nak caryk popyye diyer nak mkn poppye kan .. thn ssah nak mams .!! thn me , lynie , and nora nak mkn mac . nak cark mac dari satu terminal ke satu terminal .. kimek !! rabak siao !! haha .. we took and hour to just find mac and poppye sia !! haha !! penat pulak tuu ! sume daa beli mkn kecho pulak nak cark tempat mkn and study corner .. haah ..thn anis plan to study sambil mkn at viewing mall . haha . thn we sat there and eateat and blajar lor .. sedapz siol aku punya mc spicy !! woohh !! haah
okey .. gedebakgedebuk daa pkol 530 ..thn got to belahh tros went off frm tt place lor ..naseb tak sesat niee kali ! hoho !

Yeayea !! besok im legally to be called 15 years of age living in th wolrd yea !! haah !! hapy nyek aku .. daa tua siket ehh .. siket jek tawuk !! haha !! gonna mit rossa baybie besok at tamp .. thn after tt gotta meet shahirah and th gang to study ass MYE is just th nxt day after my bdae .. haish ..kesyan ehh Reeya niek !! takperr... Reeya goodgirl mahh !! haha .. Okey ! thot of spending my time with my Shah tmr ..but thn because of some reasons soo yea tkperr.. i understand .. soo its better studying kankankan !! aku taknak fail dokk !! haha..

okey laa berampos okey ! takecre semue ehh !!

Looking forward to tommorow !! woohhooo :)
Going 15 yeay besokk !! yeayeayeayyea !!!

2009-05-01T21:54:00.002+08:00

Hey Humans ! Im quite hapy today and i dunnoe why ? haha , slenger ehh akuu ! okey . maybe because after borfy called me yesterday after for th long waiting he told me everything and now i understand why .. omg ! i pity hym alotalot ! i felt like crying when he told me tt . i trust hym more now and ive stop thinking abt wild imagination .
haha.
okey today woke up early arnd 11 plus laa thn daa wash up sume thn eat alil thn i studied th maths thingy .. but i only did abt 3 to 4 qns only among 30 qns i think.omg !! nothing can really come out from my head sia ! haish blank sei !!
thn fitri baybie called me ask to teman her mit her akak akngt at ecp ..soo yea tagged along .. i was damn fucking late and met her 1and a half hour later ,ishh ! but saw her she waaswith amira and amalini . they both was waiting for tubagus and rafi .. hoho and daa terlanjur dorg nak pi ecp soo took th same bus as them laa..

bla bla blaa..
it was fun meeting fitri akak akngt .. haha .. shes frendly laa .. gerek babe !! waiting to mit more of her yeay !!

I love youu shaheran ! ur gonna stick with me no matter what ! i understand what u said to me yesterday and im not gonna make anymore wild imagination ! i trust u lovee !~anyway thanks to rossa and fitri for cheering me up aye !! especially to rossa ! u helped me alot baybie !! syg u alot laa bie !! i promise to u rossa tt i will last long with hym ehh !! u too okey last long with ur boify !!

mwah syag u guys truckloads !

syg shaheran fcuking bnyk ehh baybie !

mwah:)

2009-04-30T18:35:00.005+08:00

Hey Humanizers !

Hoho , HAISH ,
im quite not in th mood now . its all because of im missing boifriend alotalot . i like damn fcuking miss hym sei !! its been days his not been contacting me ! omg . frm just now morning ive kept calling hym . didnt get to reach hym cause he off-ed his phone or maybe his pp8 is low ! omg ! i feel like bursting into tears .. my let it all out to fren just now , both said tt im scared tt he is hurting u and avoiding me . omg ! why !!?? babby , iloveyou alot ! why must youu do tis . ? i dun wanna lose th trust tt im having now . but slowly wen i hear my frens say tt i lose alil bit of trust . every second and minutes in my life . every lil thing i do i keep thinking abt you . im sincere having youu as my love . im sincere in loving youu . ohh love ! dun you leave me .. i hope you knew tis , iloveyou and imissyou alot now .. i really need you ! i wanna hug you ! ohh , come back lovee ! please come back soon ! you dunnoe how deep im missing you now ! u dunnoe how deep my love for youu is now ! ohh bby ! please . i wanna spent my life with youu ! your mine and im not gonna leave youu . i love youu . im feeling empty now and dun feel th use of living w/o you .. your th one tt i needed th most ! ur my life ! ur my happiness ! ur my source of laughter ! ur th one tt picked me up when i almost fell from this miserable world , ur love ...im addictedto it .. somehow ur soo close to me.. ur sticked to my mind and heart..
im not gonna let youu goo off from my mind and heart .. ur mine now and forever . ur gonna be my last . i hope youu will saty with me forever and not to leave me behind alone . i dunn wanna be cheated anymore . Im gonna wait for youu no matter how long it takes .. i will wait cause iloveyouu !

*Forever your love will stick to me , Iloveyou now and forever Shaheran*

Come back soon to me , I miss youu bad badlyy !!

2009-04-29T17:33:00.002+08:00

Humanizers sume Hello-Looe !!

didnt get to blog for 3 days soo here yea i miss blogging a lil quite alot too laa kans .
soo here was th 3 days tt happen ..

enjoy Humanz and dunt fall asleep during readin this longlong post ehh !

Monday ; went to sch aspernormal went straight back after tt and at inter i saw my EX kfc worker tt was Fatin & Salizan . alahai sweet couples laa kans dorg . hehs . thn blablabla bus took bus 69 thn daa smpi sume turon bus reaching th traffic light terserempak dgn another two Ex kfc worker tt was Hazwan and Adli .
Omg ! i damn miss Hazwan alot laa!! i miss all my Ex kfc worker !!! haish !

at home did nothing but slept and slack around .

Tuesday ; went sch as pernormal jugak . didnt have th mood tt day as was missin boifren alot punya ! daa brape hari tk cntct because of his probs . had dc ontt day as it was raining and i was late . haiyo .! monday ader dc thn tueday pon ! issh ! naseb ader kawan sei ! hoho ,
after dc i was suppsed to go fo my Geog remedial thn malas tk pegy uhh ! went slacking arnd with beloved gerlfees ! Aisha , Fitri and Nabeelah !
hoho , u guys brighten my day u know !! hehs .
after tt i tried to miss call boifrend laa tapi diyer tak call balek . haiyo .. waa piang ehh !
thn gedebak gedebuk kiter sume belah lor !

inside th bus boifrend called ! omg ! hapynyek !!

Boifrend ; U ! U pat ner !!??
Me ; Huh ? I pat dalam bus uhh .
Boifrend ; U nak pi maner !! U dgn saper ??!
Me ; I nak balek laa . u niee apee uhh .
Boifrend ; U nak pi bedok inter ehh ?
Me ; Tak laa . tadik i daa gy skrg tgh otw nak balek laa .
Boifrend ; Ohh .......
Me ; U pat ner ??!!
Boifrend ; I pat bedok inter laa .
Me ; Ohh , alamak !

thn blablabla our conversation still going onn but gt sumthing personal uhh taklei put there .
haah . daa habes talk ajek i felt like crying sei .. naseb nabeelah stop me .
thanks bie !
hoho , i hope you will be alrite okey boify ! iloveyou bnyk punya bynk ehh !!

Wednesday ; went sch mcm biase , but thn went to aisha punya blk to mit anis , fitri and aisha lor .
suu and ayu tk dtg today for watever reasons i dunnoe ehh . hmm , fun laa tadik goo walk2 after sch . went to tampines mall and met FeellahBirdy ! hehs , i damn miss her tapi didnt get to talk alot pasal diyer dgn mummy diyer uhh . sedih sei !
thn after tt bump into Tsusiko San and th gang lor . blablabla , hoho ... gedebakgedebuk went home and safely reached home at 1645.

dada you guys !!

2009-04-26T18:55:00.004+08:00

Hello Humanizers !!

having a slight headache now . and im not sure why . haish .
okey lets strt th story flowing .

810: Woke up , wash up and went to wet market at bedok with my maid.(bored alil)
950: Reached home changed at headed straight back to bed. penat siol !
1145: Woke up back and started cooking like what i promised mummy and daddy yesterday .
1230: Finish cooking and ate luch togather2 .

130: discussed with mummy and daddy abt sumthing then decided to buy a new shoe at shop for barang2 kedai .
215: Siap-ing and thn Boify called . terperanjat sei !

Boify; U , takmuh txt or call i niari tao . i ader hal dgn family i okey. skrg i pat rumah my fren tao u . Nnti mlm i call u i bilang ehh.
Me; huh? tak dengar ?
Boify; repeated what he said again .
Me; asal ? erm okey laa . u takecre ehh
Boify; put down th phone oready !!

haish !! lepastuu jek tros i felt sumthing wrong . mcm tk selesa gituu . i felt worried abt hym alotalot !
haish , what really happen dear. i wanna knw. i hope ur okey .

now i on9 thn just now he on9 too tapi tros he off9 .. alamak !!
baru nak chat dgn diyer . it seems lyke his avoiding me sei !!
imissyou alot tao sayang !!

i will wait for your call at night today !!

iloveyou!!

Thanks , Rossa and Fitri for cheering me and givving me courage not to feel bad. iloveyou both yeayea !!

okey laa i dunnoe what to say here soo yea chiow !

2009-04-25T20:27:00.001+08:00

Heyhey!

i change my blogskin again the old one lasted only for 2 days i think .. haha . anyway i changed it cause theres a new story behind this .
haha okey byebye !

2009-04-25T19:59:00.004+08:00

Hello world !

today was fun i enjoyed today and i wont ever forget today .Woke up at 915 in th morning 'boify'woke me up as i was supposed to teman hym go pasir ris to do his ezlink yg rosak tuu.
it was th first tyme meeting hym and i was soo damn nervous . i was quite late and he questioned me why i was late . haha . didnt talk much to hym cause u knw im shy . haha . still nervous at tt tyme .
Daa smpi pasir ris teros went to th i dunnoe wat its called . i hadto wait for hym for quite awhile tapi tak apa .
Thn he borrowed my phone nak call mummy diyer uhh thn lepastuu tatwu nak gy maner pi ddok bwh blok , haha . i was muted all th way smpi diyer opened a story .
i talk he talk thn brampos pegy pasir ris inter . we took 21 , inside th bus was th most fun gerek punya ,
haha . takperluu tawu ehh . thn turon pat tampines inter dkat2 situu thn walk2 thn went tamp inter thn he wanted a kiss thnn okey laa .
we went to our separate ways after tt . haha .
Bolei thn mendak jugak uhh tpi i understand understood its only th 1st meeting ,

*240409*
The journey has just begun . i wanna hold you tight and never let u go , i hope ur serious in this . i dun look lyke im serious but inside me im serious being with you . im sory haiqal i cant be back with you . i moved on and i think you shud too . im in love with this guy now . im sory i cant turn back . wats done cannot be undone . Shaheran Syahad Khan (I dont know how to spell sory love)
ilove you with all my heart . please hold me tight and never let me go of u . i wanna be with you evertyme and your always close to me in my heart theres only u !

♥Iloveyou , Shah ♥

2009-04-24T20:29:00.006+08:00

Mulot tak perlu laa reeya .
she's th sweetest !
sungguh merapek !
look up lahh eyy !
sweetest druggies :)
muke kuu skali lagy tak perlu
Aku sayang diyer bodo !

Reeya punyek eyy !
we are what we are :)
Show our GIGI ! theese are friends!
Aisha , move away ! haahs:)
Aisha & Fitri (Sayang korg Both)
Frieinds tt i wud never forget !

she's my preetiers bytch ! soo why u care ? iloveher:)

3years of laugh , fight , cry , smile nothing can separate us !
Aisha Lion feat Reeya Mate Besar :)
Loves ~ Aisha :)
Forever you're gonna be MINE !
Aisha ; Nora ; Reeya
*poutpout*
The End !

They are the best tt they cud have given me ! u all rack baybeh ! aku syang korg lebyh punya !
anyway theese pics were took last frday during masth lesson , tchear was absent thn sume mendak buwat hal maseng2 and had nothing to soo camwhore using Nora punye hp !
thanks beb !

To Aisha ; u've given me th best of all . u've been there whenever im in need ! ur th bestest baybaeh i've had ! syang u:)

To Nora ; ur th funniest clown ever ! haah , thanks ehh dong for whatever it is although we're not tt rapat ! syang u jugak :)

To Fitri ;
Through my Ups and Downs , u were there for me . eventhot we've not been tt close lately , our memories tt we share and kept all those beautiful tymes are still safely and freshly kept in my mind ! im not gonna forget u ever cos ur th best gerlfren ever in my whole life ! I hope we could be close lyke before . Share and do whatever we usually do and whatever we've been thru from th hardest to th happeist part ever ! But lately , ive been needing you but you been not there for me , my hearts acheing inside . iloveu alot and u have always been a part of my lyfe and it will forever be in my mind and heart till th day tt separates us ! But whatever it is nothing can never - ever separate us ! ilove u babe ! ilove u dearest ! syang kau lebih extra bnyk punya extra max !! Mwah :)

syang you guys to th maxx ! :)
tata ;)

2009-04-22T17:13:00.003+08:00

Hey hey hey humannizers !!

hoho , as u can see , i've change my blogskin laa doinkz !
nice ornot ehh ?
haha , okay laa for me ehh .

hmm , every blogskin i change i have th reasons behind it okay .

hmms , yesterday was bad !! worst ever !!
i kept to myself . i wasn myslef yesterday . i muted . i had a bad mood yesterday . didnt talk much for some reasons .

Today ! was soo quite perfect laa .
i can say 3a3 was united ! we got our class t-shirt tadik thn after pe jek sume pakai . woohoo !
smangat babe ! our tchear , Mr Kwan also wore it . Cool cher ! ilove 3a3 man !! 3a3 rock my sockx bby !!

till th end 3a3 will unite !

dada:)

2009-04-20T15:27:00.002+08:00

Reeya ~ Haiqal ; TATA .

I love u soo very much
Even thou at times i do things to hurt you
I try soo hard to hope that you always see ,
How much you being in my life and what you mean to me ,
I am sory yet again for causing you pain , that this is th last thing i ever wanted to do ,
Even when im trying to look out for you and do th right thing i mess up , i am sorry for that to .
I hope you still know how much i love and cherish you ,
Like nothing else in my life gives me th trill of being loved by you .
So i hope you listen and see it in my eyes , this sincere apology that comes with tears deep inside .

*080409*

i didnt meant to end it . i cudnt commit myslef to this relationship i cudnt make it real , i cundt be serious between us . i betrayed you . i knwe i was wrong . i made u wait and wait and wen u've gotten it i've hurt u non-stop . im sory alot bie . i cant betray me and u anymore . its enuf for u to knw evrything tt hve been in my heart ol tis while . i cheated ur feelings and myne too ! im sory for doing tis , Thanks fo ol th care and love u've given me ol tis while . i appreciate it alot and i will always remeber you . i keep you in my heart love . im sory i cant continue tis because i love you a lot as a friend . i hope u understand .
im Foolish ! Stupid Me !!!!!

Till here it ends *200409*

2009-04-18T21:01:00.002+08:00

Ohh im back people ! haah , saje jek reeya nie ehh .
okay tadik i got speech day !! sungguh nyek nervous hatikuu biler tyme nak march .. but it was th most successful one ever !!

woohooo !!

thn daa finish ikot Aisha back home thn we tukar baju thn go 'Toa payoh' pasal hyp diyer rosak . alahai kesyan temankuu nie . daa pastuu goo Tmpines 1 , adoi ! bnyk peh org . sesak giler ! daa mendak pi library dudok2 thn went home .,,

i otw nak balek jek tros nmpk , Lynie , Nora , Amira , Hazirah , My Adek (nAIM) , Shapek .
went to tampines1 again ..
haha .
alamak !!!

skrg my whole blok tgh blackout in a sudden ! aiyoo ..
daa laa .
tkde mood uhh .
byebye !

2009-04-15T19:34:00.002+08:00

Hello-llo !

amcm , sume baek ? haha ,sot-sot uhh aku ehh ,
okay cukop reeya ..

let me tell you

Monday ; Nothing much happen actullay because it was such a boring monday ! went to sch and back home with anis .

Tuesday ; Had Ncc Speech Day Rehearsal . haha , kekek giler , bnyk laughlaugh uhh we all ! Yehyeh ! Ncc One Big Hapy Family Babe ! Ncc Rawk My Socx! Hee :D

Today ; Haish , i soo caled today a bad-fun day laa. let me elaborate more ehh , ehh .

had afight with Anis because of sumething laa kan , tuu jek ehh . tknk ckp agyk uhh pasal tuu .. sungguh merapek dan tk logik !

hoho ,

abey pkol 3 ader Workshop Ishak Latiff pasal buku diyer ' Rona ' ..

Laa , Loo ,Laa , Loo .. ader laa bobal2 laa .. adoi . tapi quite funn lahh kann .
he was great !
Super great !!

hee:)

abey daa finish arnd 530 lmbt sei .. went home with Aisha Katek , Nabeelah Beelah and Anis Supergirl ! ntg much happen . thn daa tron bus 65 temankan Anis pegy mkn Banquet .
Diyer mkn nasi Ayam ! haha , kekek laa nan diyer .
daa chitchat lepastuu naek 69

safely home at 645 ..

TATA :)

*iM SUNGGUH THE MENDAK RIGHT NOW !* :(

2009-04-12T20:28:00.002+08:00

Okay , had a great day today . i was th goodgirl today . cooked for mummy and daddy 'sweet and sour fish' haha . gerek sei kena puji ! wooh !
bangge aku .. thn tlg2 my bbik masak ckit2 uhh .. niari aku pnye rajin dtg uhh tts why ader mood nie sume . aoi , lau mls issh33 . haha
now im at home dgn bbik ajjek . mummy dgn daddy ajak pegy NTUC tpi mls uhh nak tukar baju soo tk jadi uhh tagged dorg along .. at last sendiri menyesal . adek dgn abg ikot mummy nan daddy . iss ! tk fair ! maner tau bolei shop till drop ker . aiyo .. reeya reeya . skrg baru nak menyesal ehh ?

almak ! tkper uhh . haish ,

txted bestie yesterday ,. abey i found out he kena accident sei dgn motor .. sway uhh . kesyan diyer smpi kene hospitalised fo 2days .. adoi ! saket nyek hati .
skrg reeya taknak txt diyer .. takot kacao diyer tgh rest kan kan kan ? i knw he is still in pain . his 2 hands and leg pnye skin kena tear sei .. saketnyek if reeya yg kena eyy ?
hmms ., hopes tt he recover fast ehh bestie !!

takecre tau you ! i taknak kehilangan bestie i yg i sayang sgnt !! hee:)

okay laa ckop for now ehh . daa mau mkn nie . lapar laa ..

i love tis people ; mummy , daddy , bestie , boify and teman-temankuu (aku tk lupe korg tawuk)

2009-04-11T15:23:00.002+08:00

Blog tyme ! hee:)

today was bored but okei laa . woke up at 720 in th morning thn woke boify up too as his goin to werk .
frm his voice i knw tt he was still damn lazy to wake up . and for suree he will be late to work as usual he is . pemalas pnye jantan ,
haah .

fought with boify yesterday afternoon . ass he said tt i didnt had tyme to mit hym and didnt maake tyme for us . haish .
i want to mit hym but somethings just get in my way . for some reasons tt i dun really knw .

bie ! im sory . i mit u soon when im free okei !

after fighting with hym put down th phone but before tt we thot of ending it . haish baru brape hari daa gadoh . aper nie ?
reeya , reeya . bodo laa .

nite passes by and txted hym and asked for an apology . yehyeh ! apology accepted !

okei daa cukop ehh .,

back to th story:

woke up thn cacall boify thn mandi thn mkn ckit bey shahirah calle me up and went off to jog with her sis name pon same nan aku 'khairiah'cume laen spelling jek.
lol ! bolei laa thn fun jugak . we were supposed to go to tampines stadium dkt2 nan our hse bey dorg malas jog daereah park infront of my hse ajek ..
pemalas laa korg nie ..
daa jog-jog bey dorg oenat pulak baru satu round . haish ! thn we went to the excersie corner situu bey excersie laa . dunnoe wat th things called soo uhh watever laa

haish !
skrg nie tgh mendak gyler sei . thn lagy2 nak hujan plak tuu .. haiyoo ! pp8 daa dead . tk tawu byler mau topup . aiyo.. tgh pokai nie . nak pi shopping .
i've got to save up laa hor !

mid year pon daa getting near . later goin to do some revision uhh tknk fail eyy ! hee:)

okei laa , tktawu wat to say lagy ehh .
anyway :

imiss tis guy name diyer :
Denial ! hope to mit u soon eyy :)

haha okei , tata laa korg ehh ;

2009-04-10T11:56:00.003+08:00

Hello Peeps ,

Its been some time tt i didnt have been blogging .
well , as u knw . been busy , with sch . cca's haish . been tiring .
lots of things happen recently .

friends is one thing . the othr thing is abt family . thirdly its abt lovelife .

haish , ohh babe , i knew we've not been as close as before . for any reasons i had to avoid frm u . i hope u know why . i cant be as how we used to before . i wud feel uncomfy whenever u strt talking as usual lyke we used too . i cant turn back tyme and forget evrything tt happen . i think u've been wondering why . but i've chosen tis path and i knw its ryte for me to do tis . if u wanna move on , just go ahead . i'll give u my best wishes . but still ur a friend to me but not as close as before . im sory i cant .

ohh , mummy and daddy ! imissyou alot ! i knew i've been neglecting you both . i've not been talking to u both a lot tis few days . dad , wen u told me tt , im truely shocked ! i cudnt expect more from u both . i know u both love me and im greateful to hear tt ,
mummy !! i sad to hear tt u cried . u told me those story tt hurt me and adek alot . im sory for ol tis while wat i've done . but no matter wat . i love u mummy ! nothing can separate me and u mummy ! eventhot ur not my real blod mummy , i still treat you as one ! i wont forget u forever . ur th most super wonderful mummy i've had tis while ! u too daddy !!

daddy and mummy . i promis ; i will study hard and listen to everything tt u say !
iloveyou both !

ohh haiqal , finnaly tis date was made up 080409 . me and hym . i wasnt as hapy tt i was with hym . i chated with zaie tis mornink . i told hym everything . he told me to stay on and not to hurt hym . just try and love hym and not to rush . but still my heart is cluelesss ?????
am i in love with hym ? omg ! i dunnoe . but i will give it a try olrites !

To Zaie ; Thanks for all those werds . ur such a good friend to me ! ur a great help ! i wont let all ur werd go down th drain alrites ! i will try and follow thru it ! thanks and iloveu friend :)

Omg ! bestie is bck bby ! woohoo ! ilove it . finnaly ur bck ehh .. ape jek .. he had someprobs and tts why didnt get to txt me ~! haha .

ok laa , chiow :)